looked around for tracks, even whistled, butâ¦â Her voice trailed off.
None of us said a word when Mama finished her story. The only sound was the trees outside creaking and moaning in the wind.
Mama took my hand and squeezed it. âIâm so sorry, Abby.â
I just shook my head, over and over.
âIâll call your father. He and the band just finished a gig up in Virginia. If you want, he can run up there and get the crate and Tamâs collar. Do you want him to do that?â
Pure hopelessness filled every cell, every pore of my body. There was the crate and the collar, but there was no Tam.
I looked from Mama to Meemaw. Meemaw nodded just the tiniest bit.
I sighed. âI reckon so, Mama.â
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Two days later, Daddy pulled up in the driveway in his old VW van. In the back, surrounded by guitars and fiddles and banjos, sat Tamâs crate.
Daddy and Mama stood off to the side and watched as I ran my hand over it. Mr. J. T. Fryar was right: It sure was beat-up. The sides were bashed in and claw marks made tracks in the floor of the crate. The wire door was twisted, like a giant hand had wrenched it to one side.
I turned away. I couldnât stand the thought of what it had been like for Tam.
Daddy pulled something out of his coat pocket. âI thought youâd want this,â he said, handing me Tamâs purple collar.
Mama slipped an arm around me and pulled me to her. âIâm sorry, Abby. I know how much you loved him.â
I twisted away from her. âHe might still be alive.â
A look passed between Mama and Daddy.
âHe couldâve gotten out of the crate,â I said. âJust because they didnât find him, that doesnât meanââ
âNow, Abby,â Daddy said, âI think itâs best if you face the fact that Tamâs gone. Heâs not coming back.â
âNo!â I said. I glared at both of them standing there, tears wet on their faces. I gritted my teeth. I would not cry.
âYou can give up on him,â I hollered. âBut I wonât!â
âAbby.â Daddy reached out for me.
I had to get away from them and their tears and that awful, putrid crate. I tore off down the driveway, slipping and sliding on the snow and ice.
The blood pounded in my ears, saying over and over, Tamâs gone, Tamâs gone. I ran as hard as I could away from those awful words.
Finally I couldnât run anymore. I bent over, gasping for air, hugging all the pieces of me threatening to fly away. Without the hope of Tam coming home, how would I stay together?
âAbby?â
I straightened up and blinked. There stood Olivia, a bundle of bright yellow coat, little black boots, and fuzzyhat on her head. She looked for all the world like one of our baby chicks.
âWhat are you doing here?â I asked.
âI was about to ask you the same question,â she said.
For the first time, I realized Iâd run to her house.
I looked at her there, her eyes all filled up with worry and the world spinning around me a million miles an hour and my breath coming all ragged like a trapped bird trying to escape and I sat down right there in the middle of the road on the hard packed snow and said, âTam.â
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âLet me think on this a minute,â Oliviaâs granddaddy said as he built up the fire in the fireplace. âThey found your little dogâs crate and they found his collar. But they didnât find the dog?â
I nodded. âThey said they didnât see any sign of him.â
Olivia stared into the fireplace and fished the little marshmallows out of her hot chocolate with her tongue. âAnd you say his collar was hung up in the crate door?â
I nodded again.
âHe must have slipped out of the collar, then,â she said.
âThatâs the way I figure it too,â her granddaddy said.
âSo he might still be alive?â I
Jared Mason Jr., Justin Mason