ready soon, but right now
I took a fast sip of bad Hollywood tap water, Ive been watching this table for three weeks. Everyone always sits at the same place. So-and-so up here, such-and-such over across. Ill bet the guys down there dont even know the guys over here. Why not mix it up? Leave spaces so every half hour people could play musical chairs, shift, meet someone new, not the same old guff from familiar faces. Sorry.
Sorry!? Fritz grabbed my shoulders and shook me with his own laughter. Okay, guys! Musical chairs!
Allez-oop
!
Applause. Cheers.
Such was the general hilarity as everyone slapped backs, shook hands, found new chairs, sat back down. Which only suffered me into further confused embarrassment with more shouts of laughter. More applause.
We will have to seat this maestro here each day to teach us social activities and life, announced Fritz. All right, compatriots, cried Fritz. To your left, young maestro, is Maggie Botwin, the finest cutter/film editor in film history!
Bull! Maggie Botwin nodded to me and went back to her omelet, which she had carried with her.
Maggie Botwin.
Prim, quiet lady, like an upright piano, seeming taller than she was because of the way she sat, rose, and walked, and the way she held her hands in her lap and the way she coifed her hair up on top of her head, in some fashion out of World War I.
I had once heard her on a radio show describe herself as a snake charmer.
All that film whistling through her hands, sliding through her fingers, undulant and swift.
All that time passing, but to pass and repass again.
It was no different, she said, than life itself.
The future rushed at you. You had a single instant, as it flashed by, to change it into an amiable, recognizable, and decent past. Instant by instant, tomorrow blinked in your grasp. If you did not seize without holding, shape without breaking, that continuity of moments, you left nothing behind. Your object, her object,
all
of our objects, was to mold and print ourselves on those single bits of future that, in the touching, aged into swiftly vanishing yesterdays.
So it was with film.
With the one difference: you could live it again, as often as need be. Run the future by, make it now, make it yesterday, then start over with tomorrow.
What a great profession, to be in charge of three concourses of time: the vast invisible tomorrows; the narrowed focus of now; the great tombyard of seconds, minutes, hours, years, millennia that burgeoned as a seedbed to keep the other two.
And if you didnt like any of the three rushing time rivers?
Grab your scissors.
Snip
. There! Feeling
better
?
And now here she was, her hands folded in her lap one moment and the next lifting a small 8-millimeter camera to pan over the faces at the table, face by face, her hands calmly efficient, until the camera stopped and fixed on me.
I gazed back at it and remembered a day in 1934 when I had seen her outside the studio shooting film of all the fools, the geeks, the autograph nuts, myself among them.
I wanted to call out, Do you remember? But how could she?
I ducked my head. Her camera whirred.
It was at that exact moment that Roy Holdstrom arrived.
He stood in the commissary doorway, searching. Finding me, he did not wave but jerked his head furiously. Then he turned and stalked out. I jumped to my feet and ran off before Fritz Wong could trap me.
I saw Roy vanishing into the Mens outside, and found him standing at the white porcelain shrine worshiping Respighis
Fountains of Rome
. I stood beside him, noncreative, the old pipes frozen for the winter.
Look. I found this on Stage 13 just now.
Roy shoved a typewritten page onto the tile shelf before me.
The Beast Born at Last!
The Brown Derby Tonight!
Vine Street. Ten oclock.
Be there! or you lose
everything
!
You dont believe this! I gasped.
As much as you believed
your
note and went to the damn graveyard. Roy stared at the
Mark Twain, Sir Thomas Malory, Lord Alfred Tennyson, Maude Radford Warren, Sir James Knowles, Maplewood Books