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earplugs and give me her full attention.
    I stopped myself from picking up the baby. And it was hard. Though his hungry cries had by now been reduced to gulping sobs, this was no way for him to feed – he’d be gulping in as much air as nourishment – and it was only the insistent voice in my head, reminding me just how young and clueless (not to mention motherless) his mother was, that stopped me rounding on Emma in anger.
    ‘Emma,’ I said instead, keeping my voice low but firm, ‘what’s going on here? Surely you could hear Roman screaming? Even through those.’ I gestured pointedly to the earphones.
    She looked up at me, completely without guile. And then at her baby, as if nothing much was up with him. ‘Oh, was it cool enough? I didn’t realise. It takes for ever to cool down, milk does. And I know he fusses, but, look, he’s fine now.’ She paused then, as if unsure quite what to do with me, since it didn’t look as if I planned on going anywhere any time soon. And then she seemed to decide I needed mollifying. ‘It’s all right,’ she said, seeing me still standing by the pram, feeding him. ‘If you just roll his blanket up into a ball and prop the bottle up, he’ll be fine. He can practically feed himself, that way.’
    I was flabbergasted. He wasn’t even five weeks old! Practically feed himself? ‘Emma,’ I said sternly, ‘this bottle is almost stone cold. And a baby of Roman’s age needs to be held while he’s feeding and, equally to the point, what are you doing on my laptop at this hour of the night? What are you doing on my laptop at all?’
    I could see from where I was that, as I’d thought, she was on Facebook, and was also aware that even now I didn’t have her full attention. Her eyes kept flicking back to whoever she was messaging on screen.
    ‘Emma!’ I hissed again.
    She sighed, betraying a distinctly adolescent irritation at the interruption. ‘Oh, for God’s sake, can’t you chill, woman?’ she fired back at me, causing me to be even more flabbergasted. ‘I came down and warmed his bottle for him, didn’t I? And would have fed him, too, if you hadn’t come in and beat me to it. He’s not going to die, you know, having to wait a few minutes. He’s –’ and then she stopped, abruptly, and burst out laughing.
    Heaven knew, the last thing I wanted to sound like was the prissy Miss Jean Brodie character Kieron used to accuse me of sounding like whenever I used to tick him off, but that’s exactly what I heard in my voice when I asked Emma quite what it was she seemed to find so funny.
    But she evidently didn’t. ‘Oh, it’s my mate,’ she said, with one eye still on the screen. ‘She’s off her head on vodka, and she’s having this major row with these two geeks on here. It’s funny as.’
    Words really did almost fail me now. But not quite. ‘Well, I’m afraid I don’t find anything about any of this remotely funny, Emma. This isn’t a very good start, is it? Now kindly log off my computer, and come and sort your baby out, please. In the meantime I am going to switch the internet off, and you and I are going to discuss this in the morning.’
    It nearly killed me to leave the room without picking up the baby, but I held firm and, as Emma watched me with the sullen eyes I absolutely expected, I left the room, climbed the stairs and crept as quietly as I could back into bed.
    I couldn’t sleep then. I tossed and turned all night, unable to settle, and though it might not have been conscious, with half an ear out for further baby-centred disturbances. And then, the following morning, without even thinking what I was doing, I did something completely out of character – I told a lie.
    ‘I’m off now, love,’ Mike said at seven as he placed my morning mug of coffee at the bedside. ‘Well,’ he went on cheerfully, ‘that went well, eh? There was me worrying we’d be back to sleepless nights again – but nothing. Can’t believe I never heard a