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name, St Thomas’s Hospital, her own name, his cousin’s name. Each try elicited an irritating wobble on the screen.
    ‘Simon, you are really pissing me off now,’ Stevie muttered. She was going to have to stop these whispered appeals to the dead, especially when it seemed she had never really known the living man.

Eight
    Stevie turned off the laptop, pulled on clean underwear, a pair of jeans and a T-shirt, took the telephone through to the sitting room and phoned the TV station, hoping to God it wasn’t Rachel who was producing the show that night.
    ‘Hello?’
    Rachel had recently abandoned the mockney accent she had cultivated for years and reverted back to the clear, well-formed vowels of public school and Oxford. Her hello hung in the air like a challenge.
    ‘Rachel, it’s me, I’m sorry I didn’t ring earlier but . . .’ Stevie paused, unsure of what to say.
    ‘But you know I run a relaxed ship and that it’s easy come easy go around here?’
    ‘I asked Joanie to call you. My boyfriend died and I’ve been throwing up for the past few days.’
    There was a pause on the line, and then Rachel said, ‘I didn’t know you had a boyfriend.’
    ‘I don’t any more. I found him dead in his bed on Wednesday.’
    ‘I’m sorry.’ Rachel’s voice was surprisingly gentle. ‘I had a cousin who accidentally took an overdose at a party. My sister and I found her the following morning. It was horrible.’
    ‘It wasn’t drugs. He was a doctor.’
    ‘Either way it’s a tragedy.’
    Rachel’s tone suggested that doctors were far from being above suspicion.
    ‘He didn’t do drugs.’ Stevie wasn’t sure why she was so anxious to labour the point. ‘The police think it was something called sudden adult death syndrome. You go to sleep and never wake up.’
    Rachel sighed. ‘I was about to send someone round to check on you.’
    ‘To check on me?’
    ‘You live on your own, you phoned in sick and then we heard nothing, complete radio silence. I got young Precious to phone, but you didn’t pick up. I was worried.’
    ‘I’m touched.’ Stevie silently cursed Joanie. She was probably off on one of the short-lived romantic adventures that had become a feature of her life since her Derek’s defection.
    ‘I’m genuinely sorry to hear about your boyfriend, Stevie,’ Rachel continued. ‘Believe me I wouldn’t do this if I had any choice, but you’re on shift tonight.’
    Stevie closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She had calculated the consequences of walking out on her job so many times that the urge to tell Shop TV to shove it automatically conjured the aura of unpaid bills and lawyers’ letters. But proximity to death had made her reckless. She opened her eyes.
    ‘Rachel, Simon died. I found him. I don’t think I can go on live television and pretend to be wet about whatever crap it is we’re punting tonight. Cut me bit of slack, just this once, please.’
    ‘I would love to, believe me I sympathise. I’ll never forget finding my cousin Charlotte, it took me years to get over it. I’m not sure my sister ever recovered, but we’re three presenters down, including Joanie who’s in hospital.’
    The guilt that had sat on Stevie since she had discovered Simon screwed itself tighter in her stomach.
    ‘What’s wrong with Joanie?’
    ‘The same thing that’s wrong with the rest of them, only more so, sickness, vomiting, diarrhoea, high fever, hot and cold sweats. Don’t you watch the news?’
    ‘I told you, I was sick. I thought it was the shock of finding Simon.’
    ‘The great washed and unwashed of London are going down with the lurgy, as are a good portion of Paris, New York and anywhere else you care to mention. People have died. That’s why I was going to send someone round to check on you. I was worried you might have shuffled off this mortal coil.’
    For the first time Stevie thought she could detect a note of panic beneath Rachel’s posh bonhomie. She walked to the window. The