mixed with diced onion, cilantro, and jalapeño peppers, then rolled in corn leaves and baked in the oven to a savory melting softnessâthey were a big success.
Meanwhile she was cooking steak and fries, but sheâd also added chicken pot pie to her menu, American-style, served in big white bowls with the flaky pastry crusts fluffed to spectacular heights that brought gasps of admiration. She had also taken to making her own bread, round, dense, flattish loaves that she let rise overnight on back of the Aga, with a cloth draped over the tins, then baked just before lunchtime.
âWith good bread and butter, you can keep the customers waiting for their food a bit longer,â she told Maggie, âand they wonât even notice, theyâll order a second bottle of wine before you know it.â She was learning the business on the hoof, so to speak.
And after long nights on the pubâs infamous hard stone floors her feet felt like hooves. She longed for one of those whirlpool Jacuzzi baths they had in spas, where she could sit with her feet being gently hot-massaged while her hair frizzed in the steam and she could keep her eyes shut against the world. A world she was still afraid to acknowledge existed, where she took complete responsibility for her own life. And her daughterâs.
Right now, they were living âon the kindness of strangersâ as Tennessee Williams had so tragically phrased it in A Streetcar Named Desire. Not that she was a Blanche DuBois. Far from it. Blanche was a woman totally alone. And Caroline had Issy, who thank God, was loving her time at Upperthorpe school. The Headmistress had taken her under her wing and she was getting a good education, preparing for sixth form and boarding school, though James was still not paying for it.
Carolineâs father paid up and never once said I told you so. He never said what were you thinking signing that prenup. What he did say though, was, âLook, James canât do this, heâs legally obligated to pay for his daughter. Not only legally, but morally.â Her father was a moral man.
Meanwhile, Caroline was getting on with her new life. Sheâd met some of the locals who seemed to know more about her than she did them, via the âpub grapevine,â she supposed, and received many a cheerful good morning while shopping on the high street, or queuing at the post office where the line was so slow you could read the morning paper while you waited, because everyone had to have a chat and a laugh. And of course she became familiar with the regulars at the pub, who came for her pie and Maggieâs tacos, as well as the cute young guys whose eyes fastenened onto her as she walked across the lounge to serve them, making her blush, which of course made them laugh and tease her.
âIâll have you know Iâm old enough to be your mom,â she would say sternly, folding her arms over her sweatered bosom. Oh, go on ! theyâd reply, or words to that effect. Youâre not old enough to be anyoneâs mom.
There was one face, though, Caroline found herself looking out for. He wasnât âa regular,â he only popped in occasionally, and he was never âdressed up.â Middle height, dark hair, a bit beaky-looking. Hawklike some might have said. Maybe he had a sexy mouth? What did she know? She certainly wasnât thinking about âsex.â Anyway, he came in early, sixish usually for a beer, and his sweater always seemed to be dotted with bits of wood shavings. Caroline assumed he was the local carpenter, though she never asked. She wasnât that interested. Or was she simply being cautious?
Every morning, Caroline got up early, gave the girls breakfast and drove them to school. Maggie picked them up in the afternoon. They were inseparable. They did their homework together; ate breakfast, lunch, and supper together. They gossiped and flirted with boys online. They went to the movies