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therapy at a drug rehab center?”
    “Jerry Fabin,” he said.
    With a gesture of easy dismissal, Barris said, “Jerry was a special case. I once watched Jerry Fabin staggering around and falling down, shitting all over himself, not knowing where he was, trying to get me to look up and research what poison he’d got hold of, thallium sulfate most likely … it’s used in insecticides and to snuff rats. It was a burn, somebody paying him back. I could think of ten different toxins and poisons that might—”
    “There’s another reason,” Charles Freck said. “I’m running low again in my supply, and I can’t stand it, this always running low and not knowing if I’m fucking ever going to see any more.”
    “Well, we can’t even be sure we’ll see another sunrise.”
    “But shit—I’m down so low now that it’s like a matter of days. And also … I think I’m being ripped off. I can’t be taking them that fast; somebody must be pilfering from my fucking stash.”
    “How many tabs do you drop a day?”
    “That’s very difficult to determine. But not that many.”
    “A tolerance builds up, you know.”
    “Sure, right, but not like that. I can’t stand running out and like that. On the other hand …” He reflected. “I think I got a new source. That chick, Donna. Donna something.”
    “Oh, Bob’s girl.”
    “His old lady,” Charles Freck said, nodding.
    “No, he never got into her pants. He tries to.”
    “Is she reliable?”
    “Which way? As a lay or—” Barris gestured: hand to mouth and swallowing.
    “What kind of sex is that?” Then he flashed on it. “Oh, yeah, the latter.”
    “Fairly reliable. Scatterbrained, somewhat. Like you’d expect with a chick, especially the darker ones. Has her brain between her legs, like most of them. Probably keeps her stash there, too.” He chuckled. “Her whole dealer’s stash.”
    Charles Freck leaned toward him. “Arctor never balled Donna? He talks about her like he did.”
    Barris said, “That’s Bob Arctor. Talks like he did many things. Not the same, not at all.”
    “Well, how come he never laid her? Can’t he get it on?”
    Barris reflected wisely, still fiddling with his patty melt; he had now torn it into little bits. “Donna has problems. Possibly she’s on junk. Her aversion to bodily contact in general— junkies lose interest in sex, you realize, due to their organs swelling up from vasoconstriction. And Donna, I’ve observed, shows an inordinate failure of sexual arousal, to an unnatural degree. Not just toward Arctor but toward …” He paused grumpily. “Other males as well.”
    “Shit, you just mean she won’t come across.”
    “She would,” Barris said, “if she were handled right. For instance …” He glanced up in a mysterious fashion. “I can show you how to lay her for ninety-eight cents.”
    “I don’t want to lay her. I just want to buy from her.” He felt uneasy. There was perpetually something about Barris that made his stomach uncomfortable. “Why ninety-eight cents?” he said. “She wouldn’t take money; she’s not turning tricks. Anyhow, she’s Bob’s chick.”
    “The money wouldn’t be paid directly to her,” Barris said in his precise, educated way. He leaned toward Charley Freck, pleasure and guile quivering amid his hairy nostrils. And not only that, the green tint of his shades had steamed up. “Donna does coke. Anybody who would give her a gram of coke she’d undoubtedly spread her legs for, especially if certain rare chemicals were added in strictly scientific fashion that I’ve done painstaking research on.”
    “I wish you wouldn’t talk that way,” Charles Freck said. “About her. Anyhow, a gram of coke’s selling now for over a hundred dollars. Who’s got that?”
    Half sneezing, Barris declared, “I can derive a gram of pure cocaine at a total cost to me, for the ingredients fromwhich I get it, not including my labor, of less than a