wavering efforts to construct an affair with Nora looked thinner than a piece of onionskin typing paper. He missed his friends. He knew that at a time like this theyâd rally to his support, and help him get over that intolerable pain in the ass. He thought of Seba, who had at least come up to see him. Furio, Brizio. Where were they now? Were they still out on the street, or had his colleagues in the Rome police sent them for an extended stay at the Hotel Roma, as the Regina Coeli prison was called? Heâd have given a frostbitten finger of his hand for an ordinary Trastevere pizza, a good old cigarette at night, high atop the Janiculum Hill, or a game of poker at Stampella. Suddenly he found himself at the Porta Pretoria. At least the wind couldnât gust so freely through those ancient Roman gates. How had he wound up there? It was on the far side of town from police headquarters. Now heâd have to retrace his steps to Piazza Chanoux and continue straight from there. He decided that heâd stop in the bar on the piazza. He slowed his pace, now that he had a destination. Then he heard Beethovenâs âOde to Joyâ issuing from his overcoat pocket. It was the ringtone heâd put on his cell phone for personal calls.
âWho is it?â
âDarling, itâs me, Nora. Bad time?â
âYes.â
âSo am I bothering you?â
âWhy do you insist on asking questions that practically demand a rude answer?â he asked.
âWhatâs going on? Something wrong?â
âYou want to know? Then Iâll tell you. Iâve got a murder on my fucking hands. Satisfied?â
Nora paused for a moment. âWhy on earth would you take it out on me?â
âI take it out on everyone. First and foremost myself. Iâm heading back to the office. Hold on half an hour, and Iâll call you back from there.â
âNo, youâll forget to call anyway. Listen, I just want to tell you that Iâve arranged a party at my place. A few friends are coming over.â
âWhy?â Rocco asked. The recent events in Via Brocherel had run over the blackboard of his memory like an eraser.
âWhat do you mean, why?â asked Nora, her voice getting louder.
The deputy police chief simply couldnât remember.
âItâs my birthday today, Rocco!â
Oh, shit, the gift, was the thought that flashed through his brain. âWhat time?â he asked.
âSeven thirty. Can you make it?â
âI will if I can. Thatâs a promise.â
âDo what you like. See you later. If you can make it.âNora hung up. The womanâs closing words had been colder than the sidewalk around Piazza Chanoux.
Itâs a chore to maintain human relations. It takes commitment, determination, and willingness: you have to face life with a smile. None of these things were in Rocco Schiavoneâs toolkit. Life dragged him rudely from one day to the next, yanking him by the hair, and whatever it was that drove him to live from one day to the next, it was probably the same force that was making him put his left foot, shod in Clarks desert boots, in front of his right foot, similarly shod. One step, another step, as the Italian Alpini used to say to themselves as they marched through the Ukraine in temperatures of 40 degrees below zero in the long-ago winter of 1943. One step, another step, Deputy Police Chief Rocco Schiavone kept saying to himselfâheâd been saying those words ever since that day, that distant July 7, 2007, the day his life had been snapped in half once and for all, when the boat had overturned, and he had been forced to change course.
A hot, sticky Roman day in July, the seventh of July. A day that took Marina away from him forever. And with her, everything that was good in Rocco Schiavone. Heâd spend the rest of his life with nothing to guide him but his instinct for survival.
THE MAN WALKED UP TO THE FRONT DOOR OF THE
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