children.
Meals at our house were far from orderly. It wasnât that my Mutter purposefully put up with the nonsenseâshe justdidnât know how to stop it. And although I did my best, I couldnât seem to rein the boys in either, at least not entirely.
Before Daed had a chance to lead us in our silent prayer, Billy dumped his pocket of rocks onto the table. Daed sent him outside with his collection until the prayer was finished.
Billy ate silently when he came back, and for a moment all was calm, but then Timothy started in about the Mosier boys. Phillip gave me a questioning look. I shrugged in return.
âAddie is too friendly with them,â Timothy said, looking at Mutter. âYou shouldnât allow her around them anymore.â
âYouâre the one who invited me to the party tonight,â I shot back. âDonât you think theyâll be there?â Iâd never been so contentious before, not in front of my parents anywayâand certainly not in front of company.
âAddie!â Mutter said.
âDonât worry, Iâm not going. Iâm just pointing out that Timothy isnât making any sense.â
âOf course youâre not going.â Mutter had her gaze on Phillip now. âShe never goes to those things.â
Under my breath, I whispered, âObviously whatâs good for the gander isnât for the goose.â
âYou donât go to those parties either, do you, Phillip?â Mutter asked.
He squared his shoulders. âNot anymore.â
âHow about you?â Timothy said to Danny. âAre you going with me?â
Danny placed his fork on his empty plateâheâd inhaled his dinner in record timeâand looked up but didnât speak. He pushed his straw-colored hair back from his forehead, showing the streak of white where the brim of his hat kept the sun from his face. Having recently turned sixteen, he was just entering his Rumschpringe. He was the quietest of myBruders and the most reliable. I thought of him as Danny the Dependable.
Finally, as he glanced from our father to our mother, he said, âJah.â
âThatâs fine,â Mutter answered. âAs long as youâre up first thing in the morning.â
âDonât go,â I said to Danny. âStay home and help me get ready for tomorrow.â
He wrinkled his freckled nose and said, softly, âIâll get up early, I promise, and do whatever you need.â
Joe-Joe nudged me, a grin on his face. âIâll help,â he said, and then began twirling his spaghetti on his fork, sending sauce splattering in all directions.
âStop,â I said.
Iâm certain he meant to obey, but instead he lost his grip on his fork, sending it clattering to the floor. He scooted down and, dropping to his knees, reached under his chair.
A moment later, he chirped, âOops!â
That got my attention.
âGot it!â he said.
Thinking he meant the fork, I expected him back on his chair, but one glance his way and I saw he was still rooting around on the floor, grabbing at a plastic container.
âOops!â he exclaimed again.
A frog jumped onto his chair. Joe-Joeâs head popped up as Billy scrambled to the floor, nearly knocking over his chair.
I lunged for the frog, but it slipped between my hands onto the table.
âWhatâs going on?â Mutter squealed.
I didnât bother answering her. It was obvious to all.
The frog leapt again, this time into the quarter-full bowl of spaghetti sauce. Timothy began to laugh as Joe-Joe lungedforward, his hands landing in the bowl. Somehow he managed to grab the frog. He pulled out a tomato-red blob, a triumphant expression on his face, until a half second later the frog managed to wiggle away again.
Billy scurried around the table, most likely to rescue the frog, but I grabbed at it again and somehow managed to hold on this time. Billy bobbled the plastic