All for Maddie by Jettie Woodruff Read Free Book Online Page B

where it didn’t want
to go, but needed to.
    Why the hell was Alex there? He
had never been there before. Was he really feeling that guilty for what he did?
Maybe I should talk to him and let up. We were just kids. Maybe he wasn’t that
kind of man. Maybe it was only that one time and he felt horrible. But Maddie,
I couldn’t let him know about her. My dad, I couldn’t let him know either. One
thought led to the next, until I was reliving that horrific time in my life.
Don’t get me wrong. I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Maddie was my whole
world, and if I had to be raped to have her, I’d do it all over again.
    I never got the chance to
think about an abortion. I waited too long. I was almost five months pregnant
before my dad found out. Dana had walked into my room when I was standing in
front of the mirror and turned sideways, contemplating on how much longer I
could hide it. Her mouth fell clear to the floor and she sank to my bed, white
as a ghost.
    “Oh my God, Whit. Your dad is
going to flip. What have you done?”
    I started bawling. He was
going to kill me. He thought I was this perfect little girl. How could I tell
him that I was pregnant? He was going to be so disappointed in me.
    “Who, Whitley?”
    “I cried harder.” I couldn’t
tell him or her that either. I wasn’t even supposed to be at that party. There
was no way that I could tell either of them that Alex Wesson raped me. I not
only got pregnant my first time, I was raped my first time. You would think you
had a better chance of getting hit by lighting than that. I was so scared and
had no idea what I was going to do.
    Of course, I lied and said
that it was a boy by the made up name of Jason, someone that had spent the week
at the resort. My dad was beyond furious with me, and I’d never felt the shame
like I felt at that moment. I knew at that moment that nobody would ever know
what Alex Wesson did to me. Not even Kylie. She assumed the same thing as
everyone else and was pretty quick to jump on the angry wagon with everybody
else. She was under the assumption that I had lost my virginity to some hot boy
that stayed at the resort, and that I didn’t tell her. I would take that
skeleton to my grave.
     
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    I did have to walk out the
dirt road back to the resort. My dad never came back with Maddie and of course,
Jaron never brought my golf cart to me. Not that I expected he would. My head
hurt like hell, my legs were sore from being twisted into unique positions, and
I had cottonmouth from all the beer.
    “You look rough,” my dad
stated as I entered the main gate office.
    “Mommy!” Maddie yelled,
running to me.
    “Hi, pretty girl,” I said,
picking her up. “I feel rough,” I told my dad, going straight for the coffee
that nobody seemed to be able to make but me. Oh, but they didn’t have a
problem emptying the damn thing. Okay, so I was a little irritable.
    “Jump down, sweetie,” I said,
sliding Maddie down my body and to the desk in front of my dad.
    “I feed a fish,” Madelyn
stated. I gave my dad a dirty look.
    “We already fed the fish,” he
reminded her.
    “I feed em again,” she said,
holding his face between her little hands.
    “In a little bit,” he said,
kissing her lips.
    “You’re such a sucker,” I
accused while filling the pot. That little girl had my dad wrapped so tight
around her finger it was pathetic. But in his defense, I too had that effect on
him growing up. It was just him and me until he met Dana when I was ten. I used
to control the string around his finger. I guess I still did to a certain
point. I knew there was nothing that my dad wouldn’t do for me. Moreover, I
couldn’t be happier that he had accepted my baby and loved her as much as he
did.
    “Dana Ray, you forgot to set
the trash out. You look rough,” my stepmom said, entering through the back
door.
    “Thanks,” I said, willing the
coffee to drip faster. “You have to deal with this for a little bit, Dana,”