all right simile.â
âMaybe if I think of dumping all my past roadkill as a mental enema, it will help me do it better and quicker and cleaner.â
âAnything that works for you, use.â
âItâs a pretty picturesque and gruesome thought, though, isnât it?â
âNot one I think youâd soon forget.â
âI canât wait to get the maggot-infested yuck and stink of it out of my being forever.â
âSo you want to go on?â
âI guess itâs the only way. Wellâ¦I was talking about the flashback action and power and respect feelings. Iâm sure theyâre all bogus now. Itâs like there are two sides to life. The good and happy and healthy bright light side and the dark, dreary, depressed, drag-you-down-into-the-depths-of-hell side.â Sammy sat silently for a long time, contemplating what he had said, then he started speaking in a strange, almost-frightening, little boy voice. âDo you suppose that could possibly be true, all that good and bad stuff they used to teach me about in Sunday school? All that stuff about being on Godâs side or Satanâs side? Are there any studies or proof of that?â
âIâm not sure about tangible proof, but there are billions of people in the world who believe in both good and bad powers. The Supreme Good Power is called by many different names in many different languages: God, Allah, Buddha, Vishnu, etcetera, just as the evil power is given different names in different cultures. It is also interesting that most major religions of the world have some form of the âDo unto others as you would have them do unto youâ Golden Rule concept.â
âPeople donât seem to be doing very well at living that concept, though, do they?â
âNo, but maybe thatâs because so many of us havenât had the âLet It Begin with Meâ mind-set.â
âI sure havenât.â
âBut can any of us change our mind-set if we want to?â
âYeah, I guess so. But like youâve said, only I can change me and my attitude and actions.â
âYouâre really coming along, smart Sammy. Iâm very proud of you and very happy for your positive, progressive thinking.â
âIâm proud ofâ¦and happy for myself! Do you think maybe it would help me to get my life back in order and under control if I started going back to my old church?â
âThat is a serious and deep decision that you must make for yourself.â
âI wonder if God would want me in His church if he knew what an unbelievable person Iâve beenâ¦what unforgivable things Iâve done.â
âWhat does the God you believe in say about forgiveness?â
âI think the Bible has lots of stuff in it about forgiveness.â
âThe Talmud, the Koran, and most other scriptures do also. Weâve talked about this before. Maybe itâs time for you to do some deep reflective thinking about your relationship to God as well as to all humanity. You know there is an old, old, old song that goes, âI want to be happy, but I canât be happy till I make you happy tooâ that is a lot truer than most people want to believe.â
âI think I believe thatâs true. In fact I know it is. I guess that most of us are just so busy trying to make ourselves feel good that we donât actually give a damn about how anyone else thinks or feels. Thatâs sad isnât it, and selfish?â
âAgain youâre right on the button, Super Sam. You know, some people take years to gain the understanding you have. In fact, many people never gain it.â
âIâm just sorry Iâve blown so much of my life and have hurt so many people.â
Tears started rolling down Sammyâs face and onto the front of his T-shirt. He seemed completely unaware of them for a long time.
âSam, did you know that your tears, at different