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me butterflies again and I wanted to kiss him. “Don’t worry about it.” I said softly. Zeppelin’s lips curved up in a half smile and he gently pressed his lips to mine one more time. “I’ll see you out there.” He breathed against my lips and then backed away from me. I turned to grab the door handle. I took a deep breath and let it out before opening the door. I didn’t regret what I had just done. In fact, for the first time, I felt alive.
     

Chapter 3
    ~ June 2012 ~
    It wasn’t like me to make out with a guy I didn’t know well. Hell, I barely made out with my ex-boyfriend Jeremy. Zeppelin was a much better kisser than any of the guys in my past. He was a lot stronger too and more dominate. I had never really thought I had a type before, but thinking back on the few boyfriends I had, it was obvious Zeppelin wasn’t typical. All the other guys I ever had interest in were straight-laced with big plans for their future. I guess I was the same way. I always focused on my academics and working toward one day being in the medical field. How odd that I was just realizing this.
    I must have had an uneasy look on my face, because as I wandered over to where Hannah was she asked me what was wrong, and looked confused. “Nothing,” I mumbled. Hannah handed me a full cup of beer and cocked a brow. “You sure about that, you looked almost lost for a second.” She said. “Do you think I’m too focused on the future?” I asked. Hannah went back to looking confused. “What? Why are you asking me this, what happened in that room?” I sighed. Leaning my head closer to hers, I whispered in her ear. “Zeppelin and I were making out.” Hannah gasped audibly, her head snapping back to look at me with wide eyes. Thank goodness nobody else was around us, or they would wonder what was going on.
    “Yeah, and it was pretty much the best thing ever.” I admitted. My brow furrowed. “I feel like I’ve been selling myself short.” Hannah searched my face for a minute and then suddenly began laughing. I glared at her and began to get mad. What the hell was so funny about this? I was about to yell at her, but she shook her head and put a hand on my shoulder. “Girl, you haven’t been selling yourself short. You just haven’t discovered what you want yet…Or at least until now.” She explained. “I don’t follow.” Hannah sighed. “Lucky you asked me if I thought you focused on the future too much. The answer is yes and no. Yes, because you have missed out on opportunities to expand your horizons socially and no, because you are working toward a dream. That’s undoubtedly awesome.” “Okay…” I still wasn’t quite sure what she meant.
    “I think that now that you’re in a new place and around new people, you are less inhibited. You’re twenty-one years old. You need to live a little more and stop worrying so much about the future. At least take the summer off.” She said. “I don’t want to make time for guys, especially ones that probably won’t stick around long.” I admitted. Hannah shook her head and smiled. “You don’t have to. It’s okay to make out with a guy and not date him Lucky.”
    Obviously I had known that. Hannah lived by those kinds of rules up until Josh. It wasn’t that I was naïve about hooking up and hanging out with a guy for a short time. It was simply something that I had never personally done. The concept was foreign to me. The thought now though was most definitely appealing. What was coming over me all of a sudden? Maybe Hannah was right. I was in a new place with new people other than her and Dixon. I had just witnessed my first underground fight and there was a strong possibility the rush of that caused me to let my guard down with Zeppelin. Was it so bad though? I was a twenty one year old woman. Perhaps I should do as Hannah said and take the summer off from stressing about my future.
    I sighed and looked at Hannah, a slow smile forming across my mouth. “You’re