frown she sought out Rose and found her sitting alone in the main room of the saloon, scratching on a tablet with a pencil. âWhereâs our guest?â
âYou just missed him,â Rose answered without looking up. âHe left about ten minutes ago.â
Heâd left? The bottom dropped out of Honestyâs stomach. âWhereâd he go?â
âSaid he was goinâ to check on his horse.â
âIs he coming back?â
Rose shrugged. âHe didnât say and I didnât ask.â
A strange emptiness spread through her, which made no sense. She should be glad he was gone. It had been hard enough waking up beside him; seeing him after her story of unbridled passion would not only have been awkward, but downright foolish.
âHe seemed mighty taken with you, though,â Rose said with a smile in her voice.
Honesty glanced quickly at Roseâs bent head and fought a surge of panic. âDid he say something?â
âNope. But he was askinâ all kinds of questions about you.â She peered up at Honesty and her mouth twitched, as if holding back a grin. âI donât know what you did, but it sure left an impression on him.â
Honesty averted her gaze. She didnât want to think about what Rose would do if she ever learned how sheâd âhandledâ Jesse. And if Jesse ever found out how sheâd duped him . . .
A sliver of guilt crept into her conscience. Drugging a customer, then playing it off afterward hadnât bothered her any other time sheâd been forced to do it; why should it bother her now? Sheâd been trained to play on human weakness; it had been ingrained since she could remember. The one time sheâd given in to aweakness of her own, sheâd paid the priceâwith her fatherâs life.
Fresh grief welled up at the memory, and Honesty pushed it to the back of her mind, then slipped into the chair across from Rose. Strands of her golden-red hair had escaped their pins and fell about her shoulders. Honesty couldnât tell if Rose had recently woken up or if sheâd not gone to bed at all. âWhat are you doing?â
âTrying to turn coal into gold,â Rose said, scribbling something in one of the books before her. âThat damned Eli Johnson is going to be the end of me yet. First he steals my girls, then he steals my customers, now heâs about to steal my livelihood.â
Contrition instantly rose up inside Honesty. Lately, sheâd been so focused on her own problems that she hadnât given much thought to the struggles Rose faced in keeping the saloonâs doors open. Eli Johnson owned the Black Garter, a bordello that sat directly on the stage route a few miles east. Heâd been sweet on Rose once, but when she didnât return his affections, he swore heâd make her regret spurning him. Evidently, it was working. âAre things that bad?â
âPut it this wayâif I donât figure out some way of drumming up business soon, Iâll be closing my doors.â
Sometimes Honesty wondered if maybe thatwouldnât be the best thing. Her father always said, âLife is like a horse race: sometimes ye draw a quick mount thatâll take ye far, and sometimes ye draw a plug. If that happens, ye donât waste time kickinâ a dead horse; ye look for a fresh mount.â She supposed that was why they never stayed in one place very long. Heâd always promised that theyâd settle down one day, but the promise only lasted until a fresher, faster horse came along. And before Honesty could unpack her bags, theyâd be off again.
It used to be excitingânew horizons, fresh adventures, greater opportunities . . . it never mattered where they went, theyâd had each other. If over the years sheâd found herself yearning more and more often for a place to call her own, she only had to remind herself what would happen if