work enjoyable was our supervisor, Sister Sue.
Like Sister Jessica, Sister Sue was a character. In her pre-nun life, she had been a professor of ancient history in the United Statesâand an atheist. It was while dealing with an addiction via a twelve-step program that she forged a bond with God, likening the experience to being wrapped in a big electric blanket of comfort and warmth. She gradually began yearning to be part of a community that was rooted in a common faith, and ended up baptized, much to her surprise. After becoming Christian, she realized that she wanted âmore Godâ in her life, and that got her thinking about the religious life. She visited the Canadian convent hoping she wouldnât like it, âbut as soon as I got here, I felt at home.â She entered religious life at age fifty.
A side-parted chin-length blunt cut, which she hooked behind an ear, gave her a girlish look, but it was her inscrutable expression with its Mona Lisa smile that hinted at a feisty side.
It came as no surprise when we discovered that Sister Sue had a âcolorfulâ past, as they like to say in hagiographic accounts. A few of the nuns had alluded obliquely to their past relationships, but Sister Sue was entirely upfront about hersâshe had lived with a few men.
We adored her candidness, and during our tea break, the other members of our Crossroads group would come in from dusting the library shelves or cleaning the guest houseâLorraine and I had obviously drawn the short straw when it came to manual laborâand migrate to our table to hear Sister Sue dish the goods about a nunâs life.
Was convent life really just high school in a habit?
âIf you mean, âDo the others get bitchy and are there bruised egos from time to time?â the answer is yes,â said Sister Sue. âWhat do you expect from people who live and work together day in and day out?â
Do you feel oppressed?
âHa! Are you kidding? There is a great sense of freedom here. I donât feel Iâm missing anything from the outside world. Iâve been liberated from consumerism and all that other crap.â
No one had the nerve to ask, âDo you miss sex?â Well, not yet.
She did not sugarcoat convent life, nor did she castigate it. She seemed proud, defiant even, that she had taken the brave and unconventional path, though she was quick to admit that the call to religious life had taken her by surprise, as it had Sister Jessica. âThis is the last place I thought Iâd end up.â
( 2:vi )
IN NO time, I was as embedded with the nuns as I could hope to be. I loved every minute of it.
The place bubbled with optimism and activity, and it had a collegial, noncompetitive vibe.
Being a bit of an architecture freak, I was initially disappointed that the convent wasnât a dark Gothic cliché. It had been built in the past five years and was airy, with an abundance of windows. Glass lined the corridors and the entire wall in the refectory, which faced out to a beautiful courtyard of swaying wildflowers and young trees; the nunsâ cloister featured a glass-enclosed porch on all four sides; and the chapel had a glass clerestory that allowed you to watch the clouds pass as you listened to a sermon or a Bible reading.
The light and airiness had a great impact on my well-being. I felt as if every care in the world had fallen away from me. I began to regard myself more as one who could be useful to others than as one with something to prove. My ambition was subsiding nicely, thanks to regular ministrations of kindness, and I glowed with the radiance and earnestness of a new recruit. At times I had to pinch myself to believe that I was really there.
The more I saw of Sister Elizabeth Ann scurrying around the place, listening to everyoneâs two centsâalways with a genuine smile, not a patronizing oneâthe more I appreciated what a mammoth job it must be to lead thirty