to Scotland to visit Greyâs sister and her family.
These recollections were not sweet to Billy, although that time had been one of the sweetest in Billyâs life. It was disconcerting to be dreaming of a lovely time spent with your husband when you were, as Billy was, waiting for your lover.
Francis Clemens had taken his wife, Vera, to the airport, and now Billy was tracking his probable progress back into the city. Vera was consulting on the construction of a library for handicapped citizens in Seattle. By this time, Billy figured, Francis would be driving through the Midtown Tunnel and soon enough would be cruising her block for a parking space.
Billyâs previously safe, organized, and tidy life had been transformed, by the presence of this extraordinary irritant, into something resembling one of those oddly shaped freshwater pearlsâBilly knew about these because of an interest in zoology, not jewelry.
As wool prices reached their zenith between 1450 and 1550, farmland was worth more as pasturage, and farm laborers were suddenly out of work. This simple switch destroyed entire hamlets. It was the history of one such hamlet Billy was describing. The topic of her dissertation turned Francis glassy-eyed: his passion for Billy did not mitigate his indifference to the medieval wool trade. The business of money, which held no charm for Billy at all, was Francisâs meat and drink. He loved to put together a complicated transaction. This left Billy cold. Economics was a science, an art, an approach to things. Francis, on the other hand, delighted in making money. What were they doing together? Billy wondered.
The doorbell rang. The extraordinary irritant had arrived. He hung his dripping raincoat on a hook in the hall and surveyed Billy. She stood before him wearing a football jersey, a pair of faded trousers, and socks.
âA vision of radiant loveliness,â Francis said.
âIâm so sorry,â Billy said. âThe laundry ruined my filmy peignoir.â
âGet me a towel,â said Francis. âIâm soaked.â
He followed her upstairs to the bathroom and permitted a towel to be hung around his neck. The bathroom was at the top of the stairs. Next to it was Billyâs study, where, on Billyâs hard, ratty couch, she and Francis had been lovers many times.
Francis was tall and slender. His hair was turning gray on the sides. He looked down at Billy and she looked up at him. In an instant they were in each otherâs arms and very soon thereafter they found themselves on Billyâs couch. Meanwhile, a thunderstorm moved overhead, accompanied by dangerous lightning as Francis and Billy lay on Billyâs couch covered by the limp, faded quilt.
âYou look happy,â Billy said.
âOf course I look happy,â said Francis. âArenât you happy?â
He was answered by one of Billyâs long silences.
âArenât you?â he said again.
âNo.â
âYouâre never happy with me?â
âNo,â said Billy.
Francis sat up. The quilt slipped off his somewhat bony shoulder. He turned to her.
âIs that true?â he said.
âYes,â said Billy. âThat doesnât mean I donât want to be with you. It just means that Iâm not very happy about these circumstances. It doesnât seem very appropriate to be happy.â
This time Francis was silent.
âIâm starving,â he said after a while.
âUmm,â said Billy. She had drifted away. Outside the rain beat down and the thunder was so loud it made the windows rattle.
âReally starving,â Francis said. âI donât suppose you have as much as a moldy piece of bread in your so-called pantry.â
âNot so much as,â said Billy, yawning. Francis could count on the fingers of one hand the meals she had given him, mostly canned soup.
âLetâs go to my house,â Francis said.
âNever,â
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