what else may be wrong. Does that sound like a plan?”
I shake my head yes. Following Doctor James to the ultra sound room, get undressed like she has requested and lay down. After a few minutes I sit on the table crying. Crying uncontrollably. It is my worst nightmare. I am for sure pregnant. From what the doctor can tell I am about 2 months along. Which means I probably got pregnant from the first night Toni and I had sex. Should have known. No one has that great of an orgasm without it altering their life in some way. Mine just happened to be a change that last forever. And my tears aren’t all bad tears. I have always wanted to be a mom. The idea of having a little baby that will be just as handsome as it’s daddy warms my heart. But that is as far as my happiness can go. Toni has told me several times he is not daddy material. He never wants kids. I have even over heard him talking to other Brothers at the club if he was ever put in a position of either choosing having a kid or abortion he would choose abortion. I don’t really know why he is so strong on not having kids but whatever it is I know he won’t be happy about this. Which is why I can’t stop crying. The doctor has asked me to get dressed and meet her in her office to discuss options.
Once settled inside her office she starts laying out all my options. I stop her right as she gets going. “Doc I know I am crying and no this is not all good news for me right now but I am keeping this baby. I do not need or want any other options.”
After about another 10 minutes in the doctor’s office I am walking out into the lobby with a bag full of prenatal vitamins and pamphlets on what I should be expecting and what I can and can’t eat. I honestly have no idea what any of it all means. I will read it all later. Just right now I want to get as far away from this office as I can. When I walk out into the lobby I am still crying.
“Haylee what is wrong?” Monica says rushing over to me. I don’t say anything while we walk out to her car. Once settled inside Monica turns and looks at me “Haylee you are freakin me out. It is nothing serious is it? You don’t have cancer or anything like that do you?”
I start to laugh “Oh I am sure Toni will wish I had cancer.”
“What the fuck Haylee this isn’t funny.” Monica yells. “Tell me what is wrong now.” I hand her my bag. When she pulls out my bottle of pills she gasps in shock. “Oh my god Haylee. Are you pregnant?” I shake my head yes. “I don’t understand. We get the shot together. How can you be pregnant?”
“Well my dear friend when they give us the shot do you remember them saying it only works 99% of the time.” She shakes her head yes. “Well I am the lucky winner of the 1% it doesn’t.”
“Oh my god. What are you going to do? How do you think Toni will react?” All good questions and all questions I already have the answer to.
“I am keeping the baby. And as for Toni well I think he has made himself very clear. He does not want to be a dad. So I guess that means I am a single mom and he can go back to being single man whore Toni. Cause there is nothing that can or will change my mind. Not even my love for Toni. I am keeping this baby.”
Monica wraps her arms around me and hugs me tightly. “Well I am here for you. Whatever you need or want I am here.” Monica says. I love this girl. She is truly a great friend and I know she will love my baby just like it is her own. “When are you going to tell Toni?”
“I am going