sheâd be hurt? A voice in my head insisted: yes.
âAs much as I donât want to moveââ I started.
âBecause youâre drifting into my eyesââ
âYes, that. As much as I donât want to, my whole body is numb. If only there were a more comfortable place for two boys to lie.â
He tousled my hair, which nearly killed me.
âVery sly,â he said. âIf only all my constituents were so subtle.â
âMention your constituents. One. More. Time. Zach.â
I pulled both of us up, then pushed him gently onto his bed with a sheepish grin. I turned the lights off and jumped onto the bed after him, hit my head on the wall, and laughed.
âIâm so awkward,â I said as I slid under the covers and lay facing him.
The brush of his hair against my forehead made me feel real.
I wanted to tell him I liked that he said God all the time, and that he had led me on a race through the rain, that he wouldâve won, that heâd let it be a tie, that his boxers were blue, that he smelled like clean clothes and rain, that he had a radiator, that he was sick, that he existed at all, that there was a world with Zach in it, that I could reach out and touch him, feel that he, too, was real.
I wanted to do more than just lie there, but I couldnât.
He might say no.
He might push me away.
Before he fell asleep, he whispered into my ear, âBy the way.â
âUh-huh.â
âIâm starting a club.â
âOf course you are.â
âI want you to be in it.â He paused. âItâs Polo.â
âUh,â I said. âLike, with horses?â
âDonât worry about trivialities, Noah.â
And then he was snoring into my ear.
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I dragged my roommate Marty along to Polo Clubâs first meeting, without telling him what I was dragging him to.
âItâs a surprise,â I explained.
â Noah .â
âOh, come on. Hurry up,â I said, cutting across the Galloway lawn in the direction of the academic quad.
He sighed theatrically, lagging behind. âAll right.â
âYou wonât regret it. I swear.â
When we got to Lombardy 207, we saw written across the board in neat, bold letters:
POLO CLUB
Marty turned to me, eyes wide behind his glasses. âPolo?â he spluttered.
âThat was my reaction, too.â
âThe sort withâ horses? â
âThat was my reaction, too!â
Before Marty could adequately translate the exasperation on his face into words, Zach grabbed a piece of crumbling chalk and wrote a question that knocked everyoneâs breath away.
What is âgoing awayâ?
And a second.
Where do we âgoâ when we âgo awayâ?
âWe suspect, we speculate, we hear rumors,â Zach said, gesticulating at the front of the room, the same Zach whose hair had brushed against my forehead. He wore a shirt thatread: Earth Science Rocks, which nearly killed me. âBut we donât know for sure. Polo Club is about knowledge. Weâre not going to be like F.L.Y . Weâre not going to demonstrate, or write editorial letters. Weâre not going to go on hunger strikes in Galloway. Weâre not even going to be an official organization. Our first rule is discretion. And the first thing we need is a plan of escape, a fail-safeââ
âYou canât be serious,â a blond boy near the front said. âWhat are we even talking about? Even if we could get outâI meanâweâre quarantined for a reason. You want to get more kids sick?â
âHouston all over again,â someone else muttered, and there were murmurs of assent.
âWeâre out in the middle of nowheresville, Vermont,â Zach said, his splash-blue eyes searching for a friendly face, resting briefly on mine. I winked, and he blushed slightly. âAs long as we donât go near other people