Backlash by Sarah Littman Read Free Book Online Page A

— she’s seen better days. I wonder why no one has thrown those flowers out. Dropped petals litter the top of the dresser, and the water in the pee bottle is green.
    “The doctor tells us you can come home tomorrow,” Mom says.
    Wait, what? How come nobody told me that?
    This place is so awful that I feel like the world’s worst sister for even thinking this, but I’ve been kind of enjoying being the only child at home these last two weeks. No having to wait to use the computer or the bathroom. No Lara using up all the hot water before I get to take a shower. And best of all, even though my parents still talk about Lara constantly, they seem to notice me more.
    “I can’t wait to get out of this place,” Lara says with the most emotion I’ve seen her show since the night in the hospital. “It’s horrible. I hate it.”
    I am the worst sister ever.
    “But they’re helping you,” Mom says. “And that’s the most important thing.”
    Lara opens her mouth, but then shuts it like she’s thought better of what she was going to say. She looks down at her hands and starts picking at her cuticles instead.
    “You seem a lot better,” Mom says. “They tell us you’re making progress. Of course, you have to continue with intensive therapy when you come home.”
    How exactly does Lara seem better? I wonder. Okay, she’s not passed out in a bathroom, but she still seems pretty miserable to me.
    “Should I throw out these flowers?” I ask, walking over to the dresser, because the green water in the pee bottle is really starting to gross me out.
    “No!” Lara says with vehemence that startles me.
    “Fine! Jeez, chill, will you?” I say, backing away from the dead flowers that for some reason my crazy sister wants to keep.
    “Honey, I want you to have a look at these,” Dad says, taking some papers out of his pocket and moving to sit next to Lara on the bed.
    “Pete, are you sure this is a good idea?” Mom asks, her brow creased with worry.
    “It’s fine, Kathy,” Dad snaps.
    Lara flinches slightly at his tone, and she looks from one parent to the other, eyes wide.
    I don’t have a good feeling about this.
    My father is obsessed with vengeance and has little or no confidence in the competence of our local police force. Having watched a gazillion reruns of Law & Order , he considers himself just as qualified to run this investigation as they are, no matter how many times Mom tells him to back off and let them do their job. He’s been spending every night glued to his laptop, creating a spreadsheet of everyone who commented on Lara’s wall, which he’s cross-referenced with Christian’s friend list. Organizing and systemizing things are his specialty. I think it’s something to do with being an engineer. The problem is, he gets confused and frustrated when we don’t fit into the systems he creates.
    “I want you to look at this list,” he said. “I’ve made a list of the comments and who made them and if they were a friend of yours and that … person,” Dad says.
    “I don’t want to look at them,” Lara says. “I can’t.”
    “Pete —”
    “Lara, we need to find this jerk. He has to pay for what he did to you,” Dad says. “Just look at it.”
    “I can’t, Daddy,” Lara says, her voice starting to break.
    “Of course you can, honey. Just for a minute or two,” Dad urges her. He’s so focused on his spreadsheet and revenge that he’s completely oblivious to the signs that Lara’s losing it.
    “I can’t!” Lara screams. She takes the paper and rips it into shreds and starts crying hysterically.
    Dad stands there looking completely dumbfounded, the way someone who’s poked a stick in a nest can’t understand why he’s getting stung by a swarm of angry bees.
    “It’s okay, Lara, you don’t have to look,” Mom says, going to Lara and trying to put her arms around her, but Lara shakes off my mother’s embrace and seems to shrink into herself, curling up and burying her head