said.
âWhy do you put up with her?â
âSheâs an old friend,â she said simply.
âIâve got old friends. They donât act like that.â
âI know.â
She finished putting up her hair and turned off the light. She undressed in the dark, placing her clothes across the chair. Then she got into bed beside him.
âIâm sorry,â she said.
âGracious living!â he said.
âPlease. I feel sorry for her.â
âSo you said.â
âShe told me the most dreadful thing this afternoon. Do you want to know what she told me?â
âNot very much.â
âSheâs had thisâthis affair with a doctor. Not the Jewish one she mentioned, but another one. She got pregnant by him.â
âOf course,â he said.
âShe wanted an abortion. He said he could do it himselfâknew how, that isâbut he wouldnât. He said heâd help pay for it. Not pay for itâjust help pay! He sent her to someone he knewânot even a doctor but some old horrible nurse whoâd been in jail once. Nancy went to her. The nurse did it in her kitchen. How horrible! The nurseâs old mother was right in the room, smoking a cigarette and playing solitaire! Then the old mother had to comeâto hold Nancy down. The nurse said, âIf you scream Iâll hit you.â And Nancy did scream and the nurse hit her and blacked her eye. Oh, Carson! I donât think Iâve ever heard anything so horrible ever, in my whole life!â
âWell,â Carson said, âyes. It is horrible. But typical.â
âOh, darling, donât say that!â
âIt is, though.â
âAfterward, somethingâan infectionâdeveloped. She went to the hospital. They cut her all up, Carson. It ended up being a hysterectomy!â
For a while they lay silently in the darkness.
Then Barbara said, âCarson?â
âWhat?â
âHow temporary is this place? Locustville.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âHow temporary? How many more years?â
âTwo or three.â
âOh, God! Thatâs not temporary. Thatâs forever!â
There was another silence. Then: âAre you crying?â
âNo.â
And then there was another, longer silence.
Then Barbara said, âCarson? Weâre not like that, are we? Weâre not horrible or sordid or anything like that, are we? We have two beautiful children, donât we, and thereâs really nothing unhappy about our lives, is there? Thereâs nothing mean or selfish or cruel â¦â
âOf course not,â he said.
âOf course not,â she repeated. Then, âOh, I wish you werenât going away tomorrow!â
âSo do I. But Iâve got to.â
âYou were right,â she said, âthis afternoon in the car. I was wrong, Carson. I shouldnât have let her stay. I see that now, Carson. She ruined our last evening together. Iâm sorry.â
âThatâs all right.â
âIt isnât. Iâm sorry and Iâm sorry I complained about Locustville tonight. I know weâll leave eventually, and as you always say, when weâre here we should try to be happy â¦â
âYes.â he said.
âAnd we are happy, arenât we? Most of the time?â
âYes.â
âAnd you were right to remember the rules,â she said.
A little later she put her arms around him. âAre you awake?â she asked.
But he was asleep.
Her eyes were growing accustomed to the darkness.
The nights in Locustville, Pennsylvania were certainly the most beautiful time. They had, in summer at least, much of the quality of Italian nights that she remembered from trips to Europe, summer trips, with her mother and father when she was a girl. Italianâin that the darkness had a colour to it, a prismatic, purplish colour. From the bedroom which faced a corner of the patio and