little l e ss than two y e a r s. S o me d ays it f e lt like two lif e tim e s, s o me d ays like two min u t e s. H is l o ss was still t o o f re sh t o want L iv.
Bu t he d i d .
He f e lt the h e avin e ss o f wa rr ing with hims e lf p u ll him u n der . J u st e n o u gh that he c o u l d n ’ t p u sh th o u ghts away so re a d ily bu t n o t e n o u gh that he s l e pt. T h er e was E il ee n, h e r red , re d h air and h e r s ha r p g ree n e y e s. He j o k e d with h er , y o u l oo k m o r e l i ke a f o x than a w o lf wh e n y o u change and th e n he w o u ld l e t h e r chase him, nip at his h ee ls, dr aw a little b l oo d be f o r e flipping h e r o v er , b a r ing h e r be lly, pinning h e r so that e v e n in w o lf f o r m s he la u gh e d with a wi d e g r in.
G a rre t t h e a r d hims e lf s igh bu t the act was st r ictly o v er h e a rd . He wa s n ’ t physically awa r e o f d o i ng s o .
E il ee n fa de d away, h e r br ight v i br ant m e m o r y with dr awing in t o d a r kn e ss and he l e t hi m s e lf re lax. Bu t j u st as re a d ily, his ti re d mind th ru st L iv at him. L o n g, l o n g lim b s and st re aky b l o n d e hair ta n gl e d a r o u nd h e r fac e . T he f e ar i n h e r e y e s wh e n that b ig man l o o m e d o v e r h er , the d iff ere nt f e ar s he s h o w e d wh e n h e’ d a rr iv ed . Bu t th e n a fla s h o f a n g e r and st re ngth and the s ur vival i nstinct wh e n she dr o ve the shi n y silv e r w e ap o n into h is skin.
Lu cky it was nick e l n o t act u al s ilv er …
She had want e d to s ur viv e . S he was st r o n g e r than she th o u ght. A w o u n de d wa rr i o r . A d amag e d av e ng er . I nsi d e h e r was a f ight e r that she had l o st si g ht o f. She call e d to h i s b l oo d . Bu t in m o r e ways than o n e . I nitially to p r o t e ct h e r bu t s e c o n d ly t o shift and take h er . Change h er .
G a rre t t had n e v e r chang e d a n y o n e . E v er . He h a d n ’ t n eed e d t o , h i s mate had al re a d y bee n w o lf. A nd the pack f r o wn e d u p o n cha n ging. V er y f e w instanc e s w er e all o w ed .
Y o u’r e n o t pack a nym o re .
He ro ll e d o v e r to h is s i de , will i ng h ims e lf to sl ee p. I f he sl e pt he w o u l d n ’ t pick at the scab o f the d ay. He w o u l d n ’ t t ur n o v e r e v er y bre ath L iv h ad tak e n o r h o w l o n g it had bee n s ince E il ee n had dr awn a n y bre ath at all. Sl ee p w o u ld give him a little b it o f p e ac e .
T he ph o ne r ang and he j o lt ed . T he c l o ck s h o w e d it was b a re ly past t e n. N o w o n de r he c o u l d n ’ t fall a sl ee p. I t was s t ill e a r ly e n o u gh f o r s o m e o ne t o p h o ne him bu t he w a s d o ne with this d ay. R e a d y to t r a d e it in f o r a n e w o n e . He l e t the p h o ne r ing and finally it s t o pp ed . G a rre tt saw the wash o f m o o nlight o n his th re a db a r e ca r p e t. Y e t an o th e r thing that n eede d to b e re plac e d i n this h o u s e . T he m oo nl i ght dre w h is e ye aga i n. He c o u ld g e t u p and cha n g e . He c o u ld ru n. M ay b e k ill s o me small c r itt er s, have a snack, g e t h is p e nt - u p angst o u t in the n e a rb y fi e l d .
I t was the o nly thi n g that t ru ly sca re d him a b o u t be ing a l o ne n o w. I f s o m e thing w er e t o happ e n to h im, he h ad n o o ne l oo k i ng o u t f o r him. N o o ne ru nning with h im o r p o ssi b ly st u m b ling o v e r him lat e r o n th e ir o wn m o o nlit ru n. He had no o n e .
G a rre t t s at u p, st u ck h i s t o e i n the mi dd le o f m o o nli g ht. He f e ll in t o it, l e t his mind and his awa re n e ss t u m b le h e a d fi r st in t o the br ight white l i ght that d o tt e d his dr y - r o tt e d ca r p e t. He was n o t awa r e o f the s h o r t e ning o r na rr o wing o f lim b s. He was n o t awa r e o f the s n o u t g r o w t h o r jaw s hifts. He was