time I did remember, Lukas was one thing too many when Stefan had shown up. Iâd been rescued, dragged into a world that I didnât know from true experience but only through books, movies, and field trips. Iâd been told I had a brother . . . every second there had been something new, something strange, something frightening. And although a monster had given me the name Michael, it was the only familiar thing Iâd had thenâon the run as I was. I was stubborn and kept it, like a security blanket. Stefan had seen Iâd needed it and had gone along. Lukasâs memories were gone. In the time since my brother had found me, I hadnât gotten a single one of those memories back, so Lukas himself was basically gone. I did my best to make sure Michael was the next best thing.
Stefan had started his pickup truck, ladder and paint loaded in the back, but he hadnât pulled out of the driveway yet. His hand was on my shoulder, giving me a light shake. I left the Institute and came back to the here and now, almost as emotionally lost as Iâd been then. âIâm sorry,â I said. âI shouldâve known you wouldnât have seen the news. I shouldnât have thought youâd be keeping it to yourself . . . I shouldâve thought and not thought a lot of things.â I managed to shut up and dive for the glove compartment.
Since Stefan had brought me out of Willy Wonkaâs Assassin Factory, as his friend Saul called it, heâd always stocked the cars and trucks we owned with Three Musketeers. Heâd said they were my favorite before Iâd been snatched and they were my favorite nowâa seven-year hole in my memories didnât make a difference there.
Comfort food was always comfort food. That was one of the first things Stefan taught me and, unlike the teachings of my old instructors, his lessons were always right and true. I held on to the candy bar and felt the chocolate and filler squash under my fingers. âIâm sorry. I screwed up. He was your father. I donât remember him being my father, but he was yours and Iâm sorry.â
âHe was, but youâre my brother.â He wrapped his arm around my neck and pulled me close enough to rest his forehead against mine. After all this time, I still felt a knee-jerk reaction to tense up, but I didnât. Stefan had taught me I didnât need to and if I did, it would make him feel like shit. I wasnât going to do that.
âSome family youâre born with,â he said, âand some family youâre goddamn lucky to have. Youâd better know which one you are. Got it? And you didnât screw up. Burning down our garage, now that was a screwup, but this . . . this is just family shit. Nobody gets that off the bat and itâs always messy.â He bumped his head against mine, a light knock for every word. âYou . . . did . . . not . . . screw . . . up.â
âBurning down the garage was a possible side effect of my experiment. An acceptable risk,â I muttered, trying to sound annoyed and failing, before straightening to hand him the Three Musketeers. âComfort food,â I explained.
He accepted it and curled his lips. âYouâre a good kid, Misha. The goddamn best.â
I couldâve said, again, that I wasnât a kid, but this time I was a little smarter and kept my mouth shut.
And I didnât burn down the garageâonly half of it. Big brothersâthey couldnât let the little things go. I almost managed to smile to myself at the thought. Life I might not ever get a handle on, but the brother thingâthat I would. I refused to believe anything else.
People are strange.
Thatâs a polite way of saying people are nosy, snooping, and meddling. I didnât consider myself those things merely because Iâd used the Internet to gather a file on every citizen in town. It was a small town, so it didnât take