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companion and gave a little nod toward the door that clearly meant Let’s get out of here as soon as we can shut this little woman up.
    “If anything serious happens”—he put a gentle but unpleasant stress on the word “serious”—“then give us a ring.”
    They turned to go.
    “Aren’t you going to take the letter with you?”
    “You keep it, love. Put it in a drawer. Somewhere safe.”
    “Aren’t you going to take a statement? Don’t I need to fill out some form?”
    “If you have any more trouble, we’ll do all that, my dear. All right? Now you get some sleep. We’ve got work to do.”
    And they went to work. I looked out of the window as their car pulled out into all the other lights and hubbub of the hot city.
     
SIX
     
    There was loud music and laughter outside on Holloway Road, as if there was a slightly sinister late-night street party going on. Somebody was clapping wildly. A car horn blared. The hot air held all the smells of the night together: spice, frying onions, exhaust fumes, patchouli, garlic, cinnamon, and the unexpected drift of roses. Occasionally a feeble twitch of wind fluttered the half-open curtains through the wide-open window, but otherwise the heat was thick and deep and saturated. It was the middle of the night but there were no stars, no moon, only the street lamps that cast a dirty orange glow round the room. And noise. People. Cars. I felt for a moment I’d like to be out in the middle of a forest or desert or on the open sea.
    I didn’t close my eyes. I looked at Fred and he looked back, slightly smiling, sure of himself, while the sweat from his forehead dripped on my face, my neck, and our hands slipped on each other’s drenched bodies. He was still strange to me: his high forehead, full mouth; his long, slim, smooth, rather soft body. Even after an evening of dancing and then sex he smelled clean, yeasty. Lemon soap and earth, grass and beer. I pulled the damp sheet off us and he stretched out on the narrow bed and put his arms under his head and grinned at me.
    “That was nice,” I whispered.
    “Thanks,” he said.
    “You’re not meant to say that,” I said. “You’re meant to say something like, Yes, it was nice.”
    He shook his head.
    “Have you ever had sex that’s as good as that?”
    I couldn’t help giggling. “Are you serious? You want me to say, Oh, Fred, I never realized it could be like this.”
    “Shut up. Shut the fuck up.”
    I looked at him. He wasn’t smiling. I’d hurt his feelings. He looked humiliated and angry. Men.
    I sat up, legs crossed, shook two cigarettes out of the pack lying on the floor, lit them both, and handed one to him.
    “I’ve never had sex with a gardener before.”
    He took a drag and blew a perfect smoke ring into the air, where it hung for a second before dissolving.
    “I’m not a gardener. I garden. I help out.”
    “Like: I’m not a teacher, I teach?”
    He blew another smoke ring and watched it.
    “You’re a teacher. I’ll be out of this job as soon as I can.”
    “Oh.” I felt a surge of resentment. “Thanks a lot. Well, have you had sex with a teacher?”
    He raised his eyebrows at me. His face broke into a leer.
    “Never with a
famous
teacher.”
    I didn’t want to think about that. All evening I’d been drinking and giggling and dancing and getting stoned and trying not to think. I’d had enough of stupid jokes about watermelons, and of newspaper articles calling me petite, blond Zoe, and weird letters on the doormat. Of people whom I’d never met thinking about me, having fantasies about me. Maybe there was someone standing outside the flat at this moment, looking up at my open window, waiting for Fred to go. I felt completely sober now.
    I dropped my cigarette into the glass by the bed and heard it sizzle.
    “Those last letters . . .”
    “Ignore them,” Fred said briskly. He closed his eyes. “What are you doing this weekend?”
    “They scared me. They were . . . oh, I don’t