my hand up to stop her. âForget it. Fine.â I didnât need any more of the creepy backstory.
I could hear Mom finishing up with the toast and knew it was hopeless. My mother/Dolores. Frying pan/fire. I was outmanoeuvred.
âWhereâs this job?â I said.
âOn Churchill Street. A lady named Tish Latimer. She sounds nice.â Dolores smiled as if it was all settled, then. I shoved my feet into my sneakers. There had to bea way out of this. I took a long time tying the laces and thought it through. Mom could drop us off on Churchill Street as per the plan and Iâd just ditch Dolores there. Mom didnât need to find out. Iâd come up with an excuse later to explain why we werenât cleaning houses any more.
âI made two pieces for you ⦠Sure you donât want any, Dolores? Itâs no trouble.â Mom was smiling wildly. It was the way she used to smile whenever Nick walked in the room. She had no right to be that pleased about anythingâthen or now.
âOkay. Letâs go!â I said, all fake and eager. âDonât want to be late.â
Donât want to be , period.
âWait. Gotta put this on first.â Dolores handed me a pink T-shirt, just like the one she was wearing.
âIsnât that adorable?â Mom actually clapped her hands in delight. âDid you make it yourself?â
Dolores went for a humble shrug.
Mom read: âLapins de ⦠Poussière?â
âThatâs âdust bunniesâ in French. Adds a little touch of faux class, I thought.â
Mom clamped her teeth over her bottom lip and shook her head at the charming cleverness of it all. ââWeâll work our tails off for you!â Wonât people get a kick out of that! ⦠Câmon, Betsy. Put it on. Put it on!â
I just had to go to another place in my head. There wasno other option. I had to smile in as real a way as possible so that Mom didnât take me aside later for the attitude lecture again. I had to put on the T-shirt. I had to put on the ears. I had to âyes âVelcro on the big white fluffy tail that Dolores pulled out of her shopping bag. Then I just had to make it as far as Churchill Street.
It was like exam time or suicide sprints or eating something you hate when youâre having dinner at someone elseâs place. You donât think youâre going to be able to survive but you do and then itâs over and you forget about it.
Dolores sat in the front seat of the car and chatted away happily about âourâ cleaning service. Mom responded like the gung-ho Public Relations executive she was.
âBetsy! You didnât tell me it was your idea!â
âYou built your own website for it, Dolores? Iâm very impressed.â
âThat many calls? Really? In just a week? No wonder. Itâs very hard to find a cleaning lady these days.â
âYouâre not giving yourself enough credit, Dolores. Very few young people show this kind of initiative. Keep it up and youâll go far!â
Not far enough, I thought. What had I done to deserve this? In my heart I knew I was somehow to blame. I watched as the houses whipped past and thought about Nick and Carly in the kitchen at Jitters. It almost seemed like the good old days. At least that sort of made sense.
The car pulled over and we got out. âThank you so much, Mrs. Wickwire,â Dolores said. âOh, my pleasure! And pleaseâcall me Kristi.â I waited until the car disappeared around the corner before I turned to Dolores. âIâm not doing this.â âWhat are you talking about?â âIâm not cleaning houses with you.â
Dolores threw her arms back and stuck her neck out. Classic angry goose pose. âWhat? You canât desert me like this. Iâve got appointments set up. People are expecting us.â
âWell, you should have called me before, then.â At that