pile of food on Benâs plate didnât get any smaller.
âNot hungry tonight, Ben?â he asked.
âI guess not.â
âIs everything okay?â
Ben looked at his sister before responding. âIâm just tired.â
âIâve never seen you too tired to eat taco goulash.â
Abby spoke up. âI think weâre just sick of school, and anxious for summer vacation.â
Matt nodded while giving his daughter a long look. Heâd noticed her reticence this evening, too, but had no idea how to get words out of her. To his way of thinking, there were events in a young womanâs life of which a man his age had no concept. He certainly had no words for them.
His own childhood experiences had done nothing to prepare him for talking to his children in a meaningful way. On the other hand, he knew all about the confusion and fear that could dominate a young personâs life. So, despite his inability to tell his children how much he loved them, and even though he couldnât get past the awkwardness of consoling them with hugs, he had determined from the outset to provide them a childhood free of fear and apprehension.
To Mattâs practical way of thinking, it made sense that a parent should attempt to recreate the best aspects of his own childhood for his children. But there hadnât been much for him to borrow from his past. The old man had worked hard at the taconite plant, and provided good food and shelter for his family, even though Matt figured his father probably kept workingjust to stay away from the house most days. But Matt followed his fatherâs footsteps down to the plant anyway, went to work every day, and provided a security for his children that they probably didnât understand right now, but would hopefully appreciate someday.
The other thing heâd borrowed from his childhood was this tradition of sitting down to dinner together. Even though his own experiences with it had been brutal, his pragmatic view was that the concept was sound. And with Ben and Abbyâs eager participation, dinnertime had become a highlight of Mattâs day.
âItâs my turn to cook tomorrow, right?â he asked.
Abby nodded.
âIâm planning to dig the grill out of the shed out back. Itâs time we get our summer going, donât you think?â He looked from daughter to son, but got no response. âAny requests for the first barbeque of the season?â He felt a little foolish putting so much enthusiasm in his voice. âCome on, someone must have an idea.â
âCheeseburgers,â Abby finally said.
âCheeseburgers. Good call, Abby. How about you, Ben? Any requests?â
âCheeseburgers are good.â
Looking at his son, Matt remembered last fall when Ben had found himself in some trouble in art class. The teacher had positioned herself on the edge of her desk, a book in her hands, reading to the class. The assignment had been for the students to draw a portrait of her as she read. They could use any style they wanted, from classical to cartoon. As far as she was concerned, they could put devil horns on her head or give her three eyes. The only requirement was that they couldnât show their drawings to each other while she read. They were to maintain silence and pay attention to the story.
Benâs drawing was really very good, Matt thought, except that heâd made his teacherâs eyes crossed and the book in herhands upside down. A classmate across the aisle saw Benâs picture and giggled out loud. Then others began looking and snorting, until the small cluster of students attracted the teacherâs attention. She pointed out to the whole class how Ben had failed to follow instructions. Then she held his drawing up for everyone to see, and the roomful of laughter added further to his embarrassment.
A note had been sent home, accompanied by the picture. It didnât help matters when Matt