I couldn’t let my mom be alone. I was better off with her. Our father cared more about Trevor anyway. He wasn’t the type of man to ever come to my dance recitals or events. However, he never missed a game of Trevor’s. He is always praising him and telling him how much he loves him. I don’t remember him saying that to me. All I know is that my tuition is paid every year, and my credit cards are paid too. That is how he shows his love to me.
“I guess so. It was a long time ago. What about you? Any brothers or sisters?” I want to change the topic from that hard memory.
“No, just me. All alone.”
“So, I guess your parents aren’t divorced.”
“Um, my mother is dead and my dad hasn’t remarried.” It’s his turn to look out on the ice and away from me. Now, I know why he always has the sad look when someone says ‘mom’.
“Oh, I’m sorry.” I reach over and squeeze his hand.
“That’s a story for another time. So, why no boyfriend?” He looks back to me.
“Well, you like to get to the point. The truth is, I’m too busy. I have goals in school that I want to complete, and I’m just...too busy for a social life.” I figure since we’re being so honest that I will go ahead and tell him the truth about why I don’t have anyone in my life right now.
“I can understand that.”
“You can?” I’m in awe that he understood my statement. Most college students care more about their social ladder than the professional one.
“Sure. I have goals that I want to complete in my hockey career and in real life. That is why I just have fuck buddies and no real girlfriend.” I guess he is being as honest with me as I am with him. I’m seeing a whole different side of Levi.
“What are some of your goals?” I’m trying not to pry into his whole life, but I am interested to see what he is planning.
“Well, I want to play in the NHL and after my career is over, I want to be a chemist.”
“I bet you want to play for Buffalo.” I giggle at him.
“Ha, no actually. I was invited this past summer to Pittsburgh to try out at their training camp, and they’ve been communicating with me all year about possibly entering the draft.” I can’t believe it. Pittsburgh is my team, my favorite NHL team, and to think Levi Carr might play there is something I am not going to get over anytime soon.
“The Pittsburgh Penguins?” I need to clarify that I heard him correctly.
“Shocked, right? My mother was from Pittsburgh, and she loved them more than anyone I know. So, it’s just fitting for me to go there and they might be my favorite team too.” Well, this night is just filled with surprises.
“Why is it that people don’t see this side of Levi more often?” I’m almost afraid of his answer when he turns to look at me.
“You want the truth, right?”
I nod.
“Because I don’t let people into my life. It’s very hard for me to trust people.”
“Why are you telling me then? You don’t know me at all.”
“Honestly, I don’t know. It wasn’t my plan to tell you, but I did, and now you know.” I’m not sure how to reply to that statement. I don’t know why Levi is trusting me, but I know I’ll never tell anyone.
“Thank you, Levi. Thank you for trusting me.” What I am about to do is going to change the whole evening, but it feels right to do it. Levi has just opened up to me, and I can’t believe this side of him that I am seeing.
I put my hand on his thigh and lean closer to him. I am mere inches from his lips when I hear his breath catch. I instinctively lick my lips, and I see Levi’s eyes drop to my lips. He puts his hand on my cheek and closes the gap between us. His soft lips cover mine, and I’m sure that I can’t breathe. I run my hands up his chest as I open my mouth to deepen our kiss. Levi drops his hands to my waist and pulls me closer to him. I push my hands through his hair and finally rest them around his neck.
I don’t know how long we are kissing,