like statues in some sort of enchanted fairy tale. Conor hung in the air, mid-fall.
Magic. It was all too much. I started to panic. My breathing quickened until I was on the verge of hyperventilating. My vision blurred as tears welled in my eyes. Bile rose in my throat, and everything felt like it was spinning.
“Dani?” I heard Russ shout and frantically whirled around to see him crossing through the sea of frozen students to me. “Dani!”
“Why are you doing this to me?” I screamed at him then buried my face in my arms as if I could will away the moment. “Fix it! Make it go away!”
“Dani,” Russ said calmly. He took my arms away from my head. I fought him but he wouldn’t let go. “Dani, calm down. It’s okay.”
“It’s not okay! FIX IT! Now!”
“I can’t.”
“You can’t ? Why can’t you?”
“Because I didn’t do this.” Russ’s grip on my arms tightened and he took a deep breath before locking his eyes on mine. “You did.”
“I…uuuucckk….” I almost vomited, but then I swallowed hard to yell, “No, no, no, no, no!”
My head was shaking so fast Russ had to grab it with both hands before I gave myself brain damage. He held my face to where I had to stare into his eyes. “Everything’s going to be okay. Okay? You’re okay. It’s okay.”
He kept saying that word, okay . I don’t think he understood what it meant.
My eyes finally spilled over with tears.
“I’m an idiot for not having figured it out,” Russ muttered. “I knew something was going on because I’ve been so much more drawn to you lately, I just never dreamed…. Everything makes so much sense now.”
“Everything makes sense?” I cried. “How can you say that? None of this makes sense!”
“Dani, you’re a witch.”
“I am not!”
Russ nodded. “You’re a witch. You cast a spell to keep Conor from falling.”
“But I—I—” I thought about it and as impossible as it seemed it did make sense. I’d definitely felt some sort of power leave me when I yelled.
I collapsed again and broke into violent sobs. Russ pulled me into his arms and cradled me against his chest. At the moment I was so weak I had no choice but to let his intense energy wash over me.
Russ began raking his fingers through my hair. “I know it doesn’t feel like it right now, but everything is going to be okay. More than okay. Dani, this changes everything.”
Russ’s voice had become a whisper and he brushed his thumb over my lips. He’d never touched me like that in all my life. It was more than just shocking—it sent a raging surge of desire through me like I’d never felt before. I gasped, but Russ didn’t pull his fingers away from my face.
“Don’t you understand what this means?” he asked, smiling warmly.
No. I didn’t understand what it meant. Any of it. And suddenly I had a very strong impression that I didn’t want to understand it. I’d reached my limit. One more secret, one more truth, one more explanation and I might very well explode.
Russ’s fingers came to rest at the corner of my mouth and he whispered my name like it was a caress. His face started to come down toward mine.
“No!” I scrambled away from him. I’m not sure why. “Don’t! Please don’t do that. Don’t go there. Just…. I can’t handle this. Leave me alone. I have to go home.”
Russ went rigid and then as soon as he could mask his hurt, his face went blank—no emotion whatsoever. It was like he simply shut down and stopped feeling. I envied him.
“I wouldn’t recommend that, Dani,” he said coolly as he got to his feet. “You’re going to want to talk about this. Trust me. Come home with me. Come talk to my dad. Let him explain it. Let us help you.”
I shook my head and pulled myself up to my feet. “I’m sorry, Russ.” I backed away from him. “I just… can’t.”
Russ watched me back up and said, “You can’t leave everyone like this. You need to undo the spell.”
I looked around the
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