gathered them cattle by the thousands, there wasnât no market for âem. They was payinâ four dollars a head delivered in Galveston, anâ there wasnât no two men could have driven ten of them cattle, let alone fifty or a hundred, all the way to Galveston. Would of taken a drover for every head. Only thing left was the hide-and-tallow business, and Iâll give you some advice right now, son. Donât ever go to work in the hide-and-tallow business. Prison is better wages, I hear, and the work ainât as hard.â
âYou gonna tell me about Charlie Stevens or am I gonna get up and go on about my own work? I have heard this story before, only it was Buttercup in it. You still ainât explained how that worked out.â
He looked away. âOne night Charlie told me right after evening grub that he was pulling out. He said heâd just take one horse, leave his other one, and leave me most of the powder and shot. He said he didnât mind the work, said he didnât mind living burrowed up in the mud like some animal, said he didnât mind the good chance of getting killed by the Mexican banditos or the Comanches. Said he didnât mind having to haul water and wood four miles. Said he didnât even really much mind starving to death as we surely were. But he said what he couldnât take no more was the loneliness.â
Howard stopped talking and looked off in the distance again.
I let him think on it a moment, and then I said, âBad?â
He just shook his head. âSometimes weâd go weeks without seeing another human face. Anâ then most likely it would be some Mexican with a herd of stolen horses heading for the border. Nearest neighbors was about a four-day ride away, and they was just a couple of olâ sourdoughs like me anâ Charlie. Only time we ever saw anything in a skirt was when we took a load of hides and tallow into Galveston, anâ them was the ugliest, filthiest women you ever wanted to get away from. Whores they was. Anâ they done a lively trade, which will tell you how bad things was. Course me anâ Charlie never had more than five cents left by the time we got through buying supplies. So even if weâd of wanted to associate with such, we didnât have the coin for it.â He stopped and thought, seeming to be looking for a way to explain how it was. He said finally, âSon, it was just lonely. You and your partner have both told each other every story you know and then told them again and again. And ainât nothinâ happening thatâs current thatâs worth talkinâ about. Finally you just ainât got nothing left to say. Youâre just by yourself without kith or kin for comfort. Stuck it out damn near nine years, Charlie and me.â
âPa, I never understood how come sodbusters didnât settle the country? Land was clear, good soil. Iâd of thought thereâd have been a farmer every half mile.â
He shook his head. âLand wouldnât grow nothing on account of the soil was brackish. From the saltwater.â He waved his hand in the general direction of the gulf. âThat old saltwater has been soaking its way into this soil for millions of years. Itâll grow grass and trash trees like mesquite and willow and huisache, but you couldnât make a crop of potatoes or corn or wheat or such. Anâ there ainât no running water. Think how many creeks and rivers there are within fifty miles of here. Ainât that many. We got windmills now, but there wasnât no windmills then. Nobody had ever heard of boring for water. And no timber to build a proper cabin. Just wild animals and banditos anâ Comanches. Them kind of conditions donât draw many settlers, âspecially the kind with womenfolk. Too hard a life. This country killed women and horses. Course itâs civilized now.â
That wasnât what Nora thought, but I