either be at the hospital or the police station. And she knew that any minute now, her newsdesk would start looking for her to write the definitive piece on the life and death of Ian Ross. Part of her wanted to go on the missing list, but the other, professional part of her wanted to be the one who would give shape to the way Ian would be remembered.
Leaving Paul in the capable hands of the JUâs assistant general secretary, a former colleague from The Watchman , Lindsay systematically worked the fragmented groups to discover where Laura was. It soon became apparent that the police had been led to the conference as a result of the organ donor card Ian carried. The card still gave Laura as his next of kin. Since her business card and a selection of photographs were also in his wallet, it hadnât taken them long to work out she was likely to be at the JU conference. Once theyâd got that far, it had been straightforward. Instead of the tragic news being broken by someone she knew, Laura had heard about Ianâs death from a strange police officer. Lindsay could only imagine what that had felt like. Even in imagination, it made her shudder.
There was no reason to hang about at the Winter Gardens, so Lindsay slowly walked back to the Princess Alice to collect her bag. She wandered through to the bar and checked out their selection of whiskies. She ordered a large Glenfiddich, the only
malt on offer, added a dribble of water to the pale liquid and took a small sip. As she took a cigarette from her packet, a hand snapped a flame into life in front of her. She looked up into the dark blue eyes of Shaz Morton, who was noted for managing the seemingly impossible, blending her job as a high-profile television company press officer with her role as a campaigning lesbian. Wherever Shaz went, controversy followed. So, usually, did her girlfriend, a polytechnic lecturer in womenâs studies. But this week in Blackpool, Shaz was unaccompanied. Probably, Lindsay had decided, because her girlfriend knew how few opportunities Shaz would have to stray at a JU conference.
âI heard about Ian,â Shaz said, lighting Lindsayâs cigarette. âNot what you needed just now, right?â
âRight,â Lindsay agreed.
âEspecially not after Frances.â Shaz took a deep drag of her own cigarette and ordered a large gin and tonic, and another malt for Lindsay.
âNo thanks,â Lindsay started to say.
âYou need it. I meant to speak to you earlier before about Frances, but you know how it is. I was really upset to hear about her death. She was very special,â Shaz said.
Lindsay looked surprised. âI didnât know you knew her.â
Shaz smiled and topped her gin up with tonic. âWe did some work together on a briefing pack for lesbian mothers involved in custody fights. It was a few years ago, long before she met you. We bumped into each other now and again, at meetings. I donât know if anybodyâs thought to mention this to you, but she was really happy with you.â
Lindsayâs throat closed in the familiar emotional uprising. One step away from tears, she forced a mouthful of whisky down, then sucked in the comfort of nicotine. âThanks,â she finally managed to say. âI was really happy with her.â
Shaz nodded towards Lindsayâs bag. âWhat train are you catching? Fancy some company?â
âIâd like that. I donât have a reservation, though. I expected to be going back in the car with Ian.â An involuntary shudder set her whisky swirling in her glass. She put the glass down with a
bang. âI keep thinking how bloody awful it must be for Laura. I know theyâd split up, and she treated him like shit, but they were together for years. You donât just switch off your feelings for someone after all that time. No matter whatâs happened between you.â
Shaz nodded. âSheâd have to have a heart of