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out his arms and stood for an instant in an attitude of crucifixion, then let them fall again to his sides.
    â€˜My poor Denis!’ Anne was touched. He was really too pathetic as he stood there in front of her in his white flannel trousers. ‘But does one suffer about these things? It seems very extraordinary.’
    â€˜You’re like Scogan,’ cried Denis bitterly. ‘You regard me as a specimen for an anthropologist. Well, I suppose I am.’
    â€˜No, no,’ she protested, and drew in her skirt with a gesture that indicated that he was to sit down beside her. He sat down. ‘Why can’t you just take things for granted andas they come?’ she asked. ‘It’s so much simpler.’
    â€˜Of course it is,’ said Denis. ‘But it’s a lesson to be learnt gradually. There are the twenty tons of ratiocination to be got rid of first.’
    â€˜I’ve always taken things as they come,’ said Anne. ‘It seems so obvious. One enjoys the pleasant things, avoids the nasty ones. There’s nothing more to be said.’
    â€˜Nothing – for you. But, then, you were born a pagan; I am trying laboriously to make myself one. I can take nothing for granted, I can enjoy nothing as it comes along. Beauty, pleasure, art, women – I have to invent an excuse, a justification for everything that’s delightful. Otherwise I can’t enjoy it with an easy conscience. I make up a little story about beauty and pretend that it has something to do with truth and goodness. I have to say that art is the process by which one reconstructs the divine reality out of chaos. Pleasure is one of the mystical roads to union with the infinite – the ecstasies of drinking, dancing, love-making. As for women, I am perpetually assuring myself that they’re the broad highway to divinity. And to think that I’m only just beginning to see through the silliness of the whole thing! It’s incredible to me that anyone should have escaped these horrors.’
    â€˜It’s still more incredible to me,’ said Anne, ‘that anyone should have been a victim to them. I should like to see myself believing that men are the highway to divinity.’ The amused malice of her smile planted two little folds on either side of her mouth, and through their half-closed lids her eyes shone with laughter. ‘What you need, Denis, is a nice plump young wife, a fixed income, and a little congenial but regular work.’
    â€˜What I need is you.’ That was what he ought to have retorted, that was what he wanted passionately to say. He could not say it. His desire fought against his shyness. ‘What I need is you.’ Mentally he shouted the words, but not a sound issued from his lips. He looked at her despairingly. Couldn’t she see what was going on inside him? Couldn’t she understand? ‘What I need is you.’ He would say it, he would – he would.
    â€˜I think I shall go and bathe,’ said Anne. ‘It’s so hot.’ The opportunity had passed.

CHAPTER V
    MR WIMBUSH HAD taken them to see the sights of the Home Farm, and now they were standing, all six of them – Henry Wimbush, Mr Scogan, Denis, Gombauld, Anne, and Mary – by the low wall of the piggery, looking into one of the styes.
    â€˜This is a good sow,’ said Henry Wimbush. ‘She had a litter of fourteen.’
    â€˜Fourteen?’ Mary echoed incredulously. She turned astonished blue eyes towards Mr Wimbush, then let them fall on to the seething mass of
élan vital
that fermented in the sty.
    An immense sow reposed on her side in the middle of the pen. Her round, black belly, fringed with a double line of dugs, presented itself to the assault of an army of small, brownish-black swine. With a frantic greed they tugged at their mother’s flank. The old sow stirred sometimes uneasily or uttered a little grunt of pain. One small pig, the runt, the