Dear God, the nightmare was back. Just when heâd begun to believe that it had released its hold on him. But now it had returned, stronger than ever.
âMitch? You okay?â
Uncle Rayâs concerned voice came from the other side of the door, and Mitch sucked in a ragged breath. âYeah. Iâmâ¦fine,â he called hoarsely, his voice as tattered as his nerves.
âYou need anything?â Though his uncleâs voice was calm, it was laced with worry.
Mitch took another deep breath, forcing air into lungs that didnât want to expand. âNo. Iâm okay, Uncle Ray. Sorry I woke you.â
âI wasnât really sleeping anyway. Try to go back to sleep.â
âYeah, I will. Thanks.â
Slowly Mitch eased himself back down, damp with sweat. Heâd put his uncle through this drill more times than he could count. But the older man never seemed to mind. Heâd been through his own hell. He understood.
Mitch wanted to let go of the nightmare. Wanted to find a way to put it behind him and move on, as Uncle Ray had. Heâd always hoped that in time the memory would fade. But he was less and less convinced that it would. Because while both men shareda legacy of regret, only Mitchâs included an unspeakable horror.
And no matter what he had done in the intervening years to make amends, no matter how often heâd prayed for release from the guilt and the pain, deep in his heart he knew that he didnât deserve a reprieve from the traumatic memory of that night.
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At the sound of a knock, Mitch looked up. âCome in.â
Karen opened the office door. âMs. Lockwood is here.â
Mitch glanced at his watch, then at his piled-high desk. As usual, the day had flown by and heâd finished only half of what heâd set out to accomplish. âThere arenât enough hours in the day, Karen,â he lamented with a sigh.
âThatâs because you take on too much.â
He leaned back in his chair and steepled his fingers. âTrue,â he conceded agreeably. âBut what do you suggest I eliminate from my schedule? Tony Watson, whoâs picked me for the father figure he so desperately needs? The live teen chat room I host twice a week? The meetings with parents of problem kids? The budget?â He paused and tilted his head thoughtfully. âActually, I could do without the budget, but I donât think the school board would approve.â
Karen made a face. âI see your point.â
He smiled and leaned forward again. âI thought you would. Okay, show Ms. Lockwood in. I might as well get this over with.â
She hesitated and looked at him quizzically. âInthe interest of curiosity, how in the world did she get you to agree to this? You hate publicity.â
He shrugged. âI guess she caught me at a weak moment.â
Karen planted her hands on her hips. âYou donât have weak moments.â
âHas anyone ever told you that youâre an opinionated woman?â he teased.
She tilted her head thoughtfully and counted off on her fingers. âLetâs see. My mother. My husband. My kids. The guy at the car repair shop. The director of theââ
âEnough!â Mitch interrupted with a laugh. âJust show Ms. Lockwood in.â
Karen grinned. âYou got it, boss.â
Mitch smiled and shook his head as he repositioned the stacks of papers on his desk. Heâd inherited Karen when heâd taken on this job, and sheâd been a godsend, serving as secretary, administrative assistant, sounding board, reality check and mother hen all rolled into one. Not to mention comic relief. He couldnât have gotten along without her.
âI hope that smile is a good omen for our interview.â
Mitch glanced up, and the perfunctory greeting died on his lips. He knew the woman in the doorway was Tess Lockwood. He would recognize those eyes anywhere. But everything else