your life. Take my advice.â Joyce squared herself in her chair like a soldier while she wrote out a memo for Adrianne to take to the Accounting Office.
Adrianne looked down at a swatch of dusty black velvet in front of her on the desk. What had caused her to make such stupid mistakes? Sheâd tried so hard. She could not do anything right. Something inside seemed to be trying to destroy her.
What would she do now for money? She couldnât face looking for another job just yet. She certainly couldnât use anyone here, not even Joyce, as a reference. What would Alfredo think of her?
Dazed, she walked back to the office she shared with Rose and Irene.
âIâve been fired.â
âWe know,â said Rose.
Heavy silence.
âJoyce told us this morning. She wasnât sure you were going to show up at all.â
âHer boyfriends will take care of her.â
The phone rang again. Irene answered. âFor you, Adrianne.â
âHow are you, Adrianne?â asked Max.
âAll right,â she said. His voice gave her comfort. He seemed to send roots into the earth.
âAdrianne, I am sorry to call you at work, but so often now you donât come home,â he said plaintively. âI wondered if you will do methe honor of attending a concert with me this Friday night.â
âOh, I donât know,â she said. What if Alfredo wanted to see her? Go with Max, pounded the voice inside as she considered that destiny depended on the slightest decision, a hairâs breadth.
âIt is a concert of excellent musicians who will play Beethoven and Mozart. Do you know this music?â
âYes,â said Adrianne. The prospect of listening to the music filled her with joy.
âThen it is not only jazz you like?â
âNo.â
âI will get the tickets then,â he said. âYou give me hope,
meine liebchen
.â
âAnother boyfriend,â said Irene after sheâd hung up. âA new one, huh? Joyce told us to make sure you clean out your desk before you go.â
Trembling with anger as she felt their gaze on her, Adrianne took out her straw handbag from the bottom drawer of her desk. She straightened out the other drawers and defiantly shoved a few pencils and paper clips inside her bag. There was nothing else she wanted to take. She would leave her faded magenta cardboard flower. Let them throw it out.
At the Accounting Office she received her check.
Goodbye, Rose and Irene.
Goodbye, Joyce, with your advice about not letting men get into my pants.
Goodbye, office. Goodbye, everyone.
She walked out of the elevator and onto Sixth Avenue. Although a light rain had begun to fall, she trudged along, not caring that she was getting damp and chilled. How could Alfredo love her if she couldnât even hold down a job?
C hapter 8
People were settling down in the concert hall and waiting for the music to begin. In the midst of them sat Adrianne and Max. Her face looked very white to him beneath the bright lights, and her cheeks were flushed. The way her low neckline revealed the curves of her breasts, sheathed in a black brassiere, tantalized him. She seemed sad, and her smile seemed forced.
âIs something wrong?â Max asked.
âI lost my job.â
âPoor child.â
He clasped her hand. âYou are lovely,â he said. His voice grew emotional. âLet me know if you need help. I have money.â
âThatâs very kind of you, Max.â
The musicians were warming up, and at last the concert began.
A Beethoven quartet was first, and Max unconsciously swayed in rhythm. The closeness of Adrianneâs body stirred him. She didnât say anything about the music, but she was very still for a moment after the first piece finished.
He put his hand on her thigh. She did not move away. Maxâs heart felt too large for the space it took in his chest, and he had a sense of foreboding.
Next was a Mozart