mind forever.
The very last thing, she thought, surrendering her mind and body to
weary oblivion.
She was back in the boat, but they were making no headway against
the current, and the small craft was rocking wildly, crazily. Oh,
God, she thought, we're going to capsize. She seemed to be alone,
but somewhere a woman's voice was saying, 'Senhorita?' A voice
she dimly recognised.
She opened bleary eyes to find Rosita standing over her, shaking her
shoulder vigorously.
For a moment Charlie stared at her, completely disorientated, then
the memory of the previous night's events rushed back to assail her
in all their appalling detail. After a cautious glance to ascertain that
she was alone in the bed she rolled over on to her stomach, burying
her face in the pillow with a faint groan.
'Senhorita e tarde.' Rosita gently touched her shoulder again,
indicating that she'd placed a cup of coffee on the bedside chest.
Charlie didn't want any coffee. She required no more of Riago da
Santana's dearly bought hospitality, she thought, shuddering. Just
her clothes, and a boat-ride back to Mariasanta. Although, at the
moment, her most pressing need was for some warm water.
Her precious phrase book was nowhere to be seen, so she had to rely
on memory.
She moistened her lips with the tip of her tongue. 'Faz favor—de me
preparar um banho?' she managed awkwardly.
Rosita nodded, a stolid expression on her brown face as if she
sensed Charlie's embarrassment and was constrained by it too. She
produced the amethyst robe and held it out for her to put on.
'Nao.' Charlie pointed to the foot of the bed. 'Leave it there—please.'
She lay staring into space while Rosita busied herself in the
bathroom. She felt desperately tired. Not surprisingly her night's rest
had been fitful, probably because she'd been terrified that Riago da
Santana might waken and demand more from her. But he hadn't—
and, thankfully, he'd also spared her the humiliation of finding him
beside her this morning.
In fact, she hadn't even heard him leave. And now, hopefully, she
could wash last night away from her. She hoped she could erase it
from her mind just as easily.
She looked at the robe with disfavour. She never wanted it
anywhere near her again. It was altogether too potent a reminder of
Fay Preston—whose place she'd been forced to take in the most
devastating way.
Forced. The word stuck in her throat. Could she really justify it? she
asked herself bitterly.
She should have fought. She should have hit him over the head with
his own whisky bottle- kneed him in the groin. It had been crazy—
cowardly just to... submit like that.
Reason told her that, in the end, her struggles would have made no
difference. Riago da Santana would have been too strong. Even now
the memory of his sheer physical power made her shiver. He would
have prevailed—eventually.
But I would still have had my pride, she thought. Whereas now...
Her mind quailed from the remembered reality. She'd become
another person—a stranger at the mercy of her own desires. She'd
disgraced herself totally.
When Rosita returned to tell her the bath was ready Charlie
responded with a vigorous mime, demanding the return of her own
clothes. She shook her head when the older woman went to the
wardrobe and began offering yet more of the garments that hung
there.
No way, she thought grimly. She wanted her own stuff back.
Accepting the cornflower dress, even on a temporary loan, had been
a big mistake, but there would be no more such errors.
But she was grateful for the bath. As she lay in the water she began
to feel refreshed mentally as well as physically. She trickled a
handful of water down her face and between her breasts, idly
listening to Rosita, who was moving around in the bedroom, talking
to someone, presumably another servant, in a high gabble of
excitement.
No prizes for guessing what the prime topic of conversation was,
she thought,