to run two circles around me before continuing with the group.
Leon ran with the team also. He was a solid runner, never flashy, but we could always depend on him to give the team what we needed to make a good showing at an event. He showed up just after B. J. I almost lost my stride, laughing at his silly outfit. He had on green trunks, a T-shirt that read âCounty Jail Escapee,â and a Mickey Mouse hat on his headâhis lucky running hat, he called it. Whenever the team went out for pizza after practice, Leon could be depended on to keep us laughing, putting breadsticks in his ears, burping Pepsi through his nose, and singing to the other customers in the restaurant. Afterward, we all went our separate ways. Leon always went home alone, not like some of the other kids on the team who hung out at each otherâs houses. I asked him about it one day as we were finishing practice.
âHey, Leon. How come you never hang with the rest of the dudes?â
âNo reason, really. Itâs always been that way. No big deal.â
I hadnât pushed, but I could see in his face that it bothered him. âYou like running?â I had asked, changing the subject.
Leon took a deep breath and smiled at me broadly. âOh yeah!â he said with feeling. âI like cross-country because we run for long stretchesâgives me time to think and breathe.â
âI feel you,â I replied. âI donât like sprintsâtoo much effort and too little thought!â
Leon had laughed. âI also like being outside, even on rainy days. I like the smell of the trees and the dirt.â He looked embarrassed all of a suddenâas if he had said too much.
âYou can smell dirt? You got talents I never knew!â I teased him as I tossed my shoes into my gym bag. âIâm not that gifted, but I do like the way the wind makes me feel strong and powerful.â
Leon had looked at me and hesitated before he said, âMe, too. At school I hardly ever feel that way.â He had rushed off to his car then. I waved good-bye as he drove off, but he pretended he didnât see.
I slowed my pace a little and let the girlsâ team pass me as they thundered after the boysâ team. They reminded me of long-legged Amazon warriors chasing their male captives. They ran easily, as if the brisk weather and the crispy leaves were created just for them.
I noticed Joyelle next. She was struggling a little,breathing harder and running slower than the others, but you gotta give it to herâshe didnât give up. I shouted a couple of good words to her as she ran: âYou go, girl!â Joyelle looked up and smiled at me with appreciation. She didnât run with the ease of the older girls who were in better shape. She had eaten far too many hamburgers and french fries to run with any speed or consistency. But she refused to give up, and she told me not long ago that in just the few weeks she had been running with us, she felt better, and her jeans zipped up a lot easier.
Just behind the girlsâ team jogged Jonathan Hathaway. I didnât notice at first when he started running next to me. My mind was on the colors of the leaves and how Andy had loved to rake a big pile of leaves, then jump into them. Jonathan was dressed in a silkâyes, silkâUniversity of Cincinnati track suit, and he ran easily in and among the girls, encouraging them, handing out water, jogging easily at the pace he set for them. I watched as they looked at himâkinda like puppies at a kennel. Theyâd do anything to please him. If he smiled and winked a golden eye at one of them, she ran harder, striving to please him. Not me, though. Basically, I tried to ignore him. I slowed down and let the group get far ahead of me. Jonathan glanced back at me, but said nothing. He ran on with the girlsâ team. I finally slowed my pace to a walk, taking slow, deep breaths.
âKeisha! What are you doing