furnace.â
Charles sat very still. In a low, sardonic voice, he said, âSome men are born right. Others marry well.â
John Carey stared at his son. âDo you think thatâs why â¦?â
âI donât have to see the furnace room, Father. After all, I saw your bedroom.â
John Careyâs face stiffened. Into a silence like a caught breath he hissed, âIf you werenât my son â¦â
âIâm sure the time involved was minimal.â Charles paused to catch himself, finishing softly, âAs it was until the day she died.â
Charlesâs eyes were chips of ice in an aquiline mask; a vein throbbed at John Careyâs temple. âYou blame me for that, damn youâyou always have.â His breathing felt ragged. âI did what I had to do, and by marrying her I also saved this firm. She knew that, and if it meant she couldnât always have my attention at least she could say she slept with a man.â He paused to steady his voice, then added with silken cruelty, âWhich is more than your vain and neurasthenic wife will ever say, isnât it?â
For a minute Charlesâs look was open, surprised, like that of the boy John Carey remembered waiting at the train, before his face would close. Charles lit a cigarette. âI was fifteen, Father, and I was all she had.â He looked up at John Carey, face set once more. âAnd as she died I knew she was all we had.â
John Carey remembered coming home too late: emaciated in death, Ellen already seemed a skeleton. âI built this firm for you.â
âYou built it for yourself. I wonât put Peter at risk for your obsession.â
â Your obsession.â
Charles paused. In a level voice he said, âIt isnât, now.â
âThen youâre a fool. A man needs something that belongs to him, or heâs no man at allâor father.â John Carey plucked a cigar from his pocket, carefully unwrapping it to steady himself. âDo you remember Clayton Barth?â
âOne of our salesmen.â Charlesâs look turned wary. âHe used to cover Texas.â
âAnd Oklahoma.â John Carey waved his unlit cigar. âSit down.â
âWhat does Barth â¦?â
âSit down, dammit. I wonât have you hovering like that.â
Charles hesitated, then stubbed his cigarette and sat. John Carey lit the cigar, eyes narrow with concentration, letting the silence and the things in the roomâfine Chinese vases, his smiling picture with Winston Churchillâwork on his son. He emitted a long stream of cigar smoke. âItâs quite pathetic, really. Heâd been with us fifteen years. The spring of the sixteenth year Barth approached me at our sales conference at the Biltmore and said he needed to talk.â
Even now, John Carey could see the man as clearly as in a photograph â¦
âHe was short, with frogâs eyes and a pouch for a stomach that made him wear his pants too high, and the roomâthe smoke and noise and larger men acting confidentâseemed to shrink him even more. âMr. Carey,â he croaks, âIâd like a chance at that sales managerâs position thatâs opened up.â
âHe stood there holding his overcoat and hat in front of him, as if he were ready to leave should the idea bore me. There was no point mincing words: everything about him whispered, âKeep me where I am.â âIâm sorry, Clayton,â I say, âbut youâre fine where you are. Iâve got someone for the other.â
âHis shoulders slump. âWell, sirâââJohn Careyâs voice rose in savage mimicryâââthen Iâd like permission to resign at yearâs end â¦â
âI couldnât believe the servility of the man. Finally, I say, âResign?â and let him dangle there awhile. For the first time he interests meâI want to
Benjamin Blech, Roy Doliner