somewhere around him that he thought maybe he was going crazy. His heart hurt him. He wondered if he would ever get better.
And though he denied it, he did hate Esther. She was so different from his mother and father. Prejudicedâshe admired only those who were white and Presbyterian. Selfishâshe wouldnât allow him to use her phone. Complainingâshe always had a headache or a backache or a stomachache.
He didnât want to, but he hated her. And he didnât know what to do except lie about it.
Michael hadnât made any friends at his new school, and his teachers barely noticed him. He came home alone every day and usually found Esther on the phone. She kept in close touch with several other women in nearby condominiums.
Esther told her friends she didnât understand Michael. She said she knew he must grieve for his parents, but why punish her? She said she thought she might send him away if he couldnât be nicer. She said she didnât deserve this.
But when Michael came in the door, she always quickly changed the subject.
One day after school Michael came home with a hermit crab. He had gone into a pet store, looking for some small living thing, and hermit crabs were selling for just a few dollars. Heâd bought one, and a bowl.
Esther, for a change, was not on the phone when he arrived home. She was having tea and a crescent roll and seemed cheerful. Michael wanted badly to show someone what he had bought. So he showed her.
Esther surprised him. She picked up the shelland poked the long, shiny nail of her little finger at the crabâs claws.
âWhere is he?â she asked.
Michael showed her the crabâs eyes peering through the small opening of the shell.
âWell, for heavenâs sake, come out of there!â she said to the crab, and she turned the shell upside down and shook it.
âAunt Esther!â Michael grabbed for the shell.
âAll right, all right.â She turned it right side up. âWell,â she said, âwhat does he do?â
Michael grinned and shrugged his shoulders.
âI donât know,â he answered. âJust grows, I guess.â
His aunt looked at him.
âAn attraction to a crab is something I cannot identify with. However, itâs fine with me if you keep him, as long as I can be assured he wonât grow out of that bowl.â She gave him a hard stare.
âHe wonât,â Michael answered. âI promise.â
The hermit crab moved into the condominium. Michael named him Sluggo and kept the bowl beside his bed. Michael had to watch the bowl for very long periods of time to catch Sluggo with his head poking out of his shell, moving around. Bedtime seemed to be Sluggoâsliveliest part of the day, and Michael found it easy to lie and watch the busy crab as sleep slowly came on.
One day Michael arrived home to find Esther sitting on the edge of his bed, looking at the bowl. Esther usually did not intrude in Michaelâs room, and seeing her there disturbed him. But he stood at the doorway and said nothing.
Esther seemed perfectly comfortable, although she looked over at him with a frown on her face.
âI think he needs a companion,â she said.
âWhat?â Michaelâs eyebrows went up as his jaw dropped down.
Esther sniffed.
âI think Sluggo needs a girl friend.â She stood up. âWhere is that pet store?â
Michael took her. In the store was a huge tank full of hermit crabs.
âOh my!â Esther grabbed the rim of the tank and craned her neck over the side. âLook at them!â
Michael was looking more at his Aunt Esther than at the crabs. He couldnât believe it.
âOh, look at those shells. You say they grow out of them? We must stock up with severalsizes. See the pink in that one? Michael, look! Heâs got his little head out!â
Esther was so dramaticâleaning into the tank, her bangle bracelets clanking, earrings