was just broken beer bottles glittering under the streetlamps, but no, they were really fireflies. Incredible, magical, wonderful creatures. Everything about me began to twitch, to move. I wanted to dance. I had to get up. I had to see them up close.
I pulled the cord and got off the bus. Despite my full backpack, I skipped and leapt as I hurried back to the fireflies. I twirled among them. One landed on my hand and blinked before it flew off. I imagined I heard them singing to me, welcoming me and asking me to stay and dance with them. I imagined they had bright, high voices, soft but crystal clear. âYouâre beautiful,â I said out loud. âI love you.â I stayed until it began to rain, not a few drops, but a real rainstormâalso so unusual in LAâuntil I was wet and the fireflies were gone. Then I ran all the way home. I could have sworn my feet left the pavement for longer than humanly possible.
I bounded up the front steps and into my house. âMom!â I shouted like a ten-year-old, âIâm home! Guess what? Guess what?â
My tiny, skinny Mom came out of the kitchen with a big fat smile on her face and a big fat envelope in her hands.
âWhat is that?â
âItâs from Colorado,â she said. âIt feels pretty heavy.â
Dad came out of the birdhouse room. âGo on,â he said. âWeâve been waiting.â
I ripped it open and read aloud, âDear October: We are pleased to inform youââ I threw my arms around my mom. âIâm in!â
It was fantastic. Colorado was one of my first choices, a great school for animal sciences and far, but not too far, from home. My mother actually had tears in her eyes.
âI fixed your favorite dinner,â she said. âI knew weâd be celebrating.â
I was happy, happy, happy, but then I remembered Trevor. I couldnât stand him up. Iâd have to take the car, run to the Stop N Shop, and explain to him why I couldnât stay. Heâd understand. I wondered if heâd heard from any colleges yet. I turned to Dad to give him a hug too.
He seemed different somehow. I went in for the congratulatory embrace, and he just patted me on the back mechanically. There was something subdued about him. He was usually the most boisterous of all of us, the âJolly Fat Manâ as he called himself. But he looked down at the floor and his shoulders sagged.
âDonât worry, Dad,â I said. âIâll be home for Christmas and summers.â
He looked up and I saw he wasnât sad about me leavingâit was something else in his eyes. Or nothing. A blankness. He forced a smile. âSuch good news,â he said. âI am so happy for you.â
He sounded so straight and formal, not like him at all, but I didnât have time to wonder too much about it. I looked at the
clock over the mantle and said, âI have to run to the store.â
âNow?â Mom asked.
âEmergency. You know.â I leaned over and whispered in her ear the magic word, âTampons.â
âTake my car,â she said. âDinner will be ready in fifteen.â
âBack in a flash.â
As I grabbed her keys, I noticed my dad hadnât moved. He was still staring at the floor. The rug wasnât that interesting.
âYou okay?â I asked.
âFine, thank you,â he replied.
He didnât look fine to me, but I was late. Iâd talk to him when I got home. I ran out the front door.
The rain had stopped but the streets were wet and shiny. I drove at a speed definitely ticketable, but I couldnât help it. I was excited both with my news and to see Trevor. Would I have my first kiss along with everything elseâlike the cherry on top of a dish of fireflies and college? When I pulled up, Trevor was waiting for me out front of the Stop N Shop. I started to get out, but he came and got in the passenger seat.
âHi,â