up. Sheâs swinging an enormous Victoriaâs Secret bag between them, the bright pink stripes glinting in the fluorescent lighting. The Guitar Player has one pretzel in his hand and Mom is taking bites out of it as he feeds it to her. God, give it a rest already. That bag better be filled with scented hand creams and body sprays, because the idea of her and him and smutty underwear is too much for me today.
Chapter 5
Only the second day of school and already itâs started. Cody and I are walking from our lockers to home-room on Tuesday when someone rams us from behind and slams Cody against a trash can.
âWatch it!â I yell, even though I canât see who it was.
Cody wipes trash juice from the side of the can off his new boot-cut jeans. His face shows more than distaste for the gross. He is afraid.
I hand him a tissue out of my backpack. Iâm pretty sure itâs clean. âDonât worry. It was just an accident.â
He nods but doesnât look at me. The tissue turns a splotchy brown, and he throws it away. âItâs not the only thing.â
âWhat else? Why didnât you tell me?â I promised Cody this would stop, but really, Iâd just hoped it would all go away.
âDidnât want you to worry.â He reaches into his backpack and pulls out a drawstring bag. âIt was in my locker this morning.â
I peek inside. âWhatâs Mr. Manly doing at school?â
My sisters gave me a dildo for my fourteenth birthday. I still havenât figured out if it was a joke, a girl-power thing, or just a statement on the sad state of teen sex in the new millennium. Whatever it was, Mr. Manly is still in his gift bag, hidden under my bed.
Cody shakes his head like he canât believe he wants to laugh. âItâs not Mr. Manly.â He urges me to lean in. âLook closer.â
This dildo is definitely not Mr. Manly. This is Mr. Manlyâs older, bigger, black brother. âOh my God. Why would they give this to you?â
He digs in his backpack. âIt came with a card.â
Maybe this will keep you at home.
I give Cody a hug. âItâs just some jerk. Ignore them.â
Codyâs body quivers. âI canât do it againânot this year, not anymore. Abs, Iâve got to get out of this place.â
âWeâll tell someone. A teacher, or the principal. Theyâll make it stop.â
On soap operas, teens are only taunted for being uncool, which usually a makeover from a do-gooder character can cure. With Cody, itâs not that simple and I understand why heâs so afraid to come out. If this is how they treat him when theyâre not sure, how much worse will it be when they know?
âNo one can help me. I donât even know who it is.â
I have a hunch. When youâve known someone your whole life, you pretty much know what they are capable of. Sean Evans and Craig Phelps are my two main suspects. They tortured the fetal pig in Bio last year, making it dance with its dissected insides hanging out. To Cody, I say, âWe wonât know unless we try.â
âNo.â He stands up straight, takes the drawstring bag, and stuffs it into his backpack. âItâs bad enough what they think. I wonât have my teachers looking at me weird, thinking Iâm . . . you know.â
But you are . I donât say it, because just the word gay makes him wince. There are only three openly gay students at Union High, and theyâre mostly left alone. I donât know why Cody is singled out. Last year, he dealt with graffiti on his locker, and stupid shit like having his underwear stolen during PE and then returned the next day with a hole cut in the butt. The brush-bys in the hallways, the whispered hate. It escalated in the spring, but no matter how much I begged, he wouldnât tell anyone but me.
The bell rings. Weâre late. And because Cody swears me to silence, I lie to