Mama,â Gary said gently. âI shouldnât have to be scared to go anyplace I want to.â
âSuch a hardheaded child you are,â his mother said, weeping. âYouâve always been my headstrong, bold baby. But itâs going to get you killed, Gary.â
âDonât cry, Mama. Iâll be fine. I promise Iâll be more careful.â Gary reached up to touch his motherâs face.
âSo where did you go?â his father asked. He was pacing the floor again.
âI stopped by the NAACP office to see if there was any news about the school integration stuff.â
âNo wonder they targeted you!â his father roared. âWhy do you hang around those people?â
âBecause when they choose students to go, I intend to be one of them!â Gary replied with as much vigor as his injuries would allow.
âWell, this certainly isnât going to help your chances!â Mr. Patterson retorted angrily. âEven if we decided to let you try!â
âIt wasnât my fault!â Gary protested. âI was almost home-walking down the street, minding my own business, when those three boys started calling me âNiggerâ and âCoon.â One of them was Johnny Crandall. The other two were Sonny and Bubba Smith. They were in a car, but they followed me real slow, yelling and cursing the whole time.â
Everybody knew not to tangle with the Smith brothers. They called themselves the âWild Cherry Cough Drops,â and had been known to vandalize cars and steal from the Zuckersâ market. They took great pleasure in driving their â56 Ford up and down the streets of the Negro neighborhood all night long. The car had no muffler, so it sounded like a mechanical animal in distress, and a very loud, specially installed horn blared the song âDixieâ so loudly it could be heard blocks away.
âCouldnât you just have ignored them, son?â his mother asked tearfully as she bandaged the cuts on his head. âDoesnât the Good Book tell us to turn the other cheek?â
âI tried, Mama, but then they started throwing beer cans at me, so I picked up one of the cans and threw it back. It hit Bubba Smith in his eye.â It looked to Sylvia like Gary was trying to smile, but his lip was pretty swollen by this time. âThey stopped the car, jumped out, and even though I got in a couple of good punches, I couldnât stop all three of them.â
âHow did they know where you live?â his father asked.
âThey know, Dad. They know. They tossed me back on my own porch to send a message. They know Iâll never stop fighting for whatâs right!â
âUnless they kill you,â Mr. Patterson said angrily.
Sylvia wasnât sure if her father was angry at Gary, or at the boys who attacked him, but at no time that evening did she see him get on his knees and pray. And, for once, her mother had no proverbs to quote.
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Monday, January 7, 1957âLate Evening
I really worry about my big brother. His wounds will heal, but not the fury that keeps growing inside his heart. Gary is angry all the time these days. When he used to sing in the choir at church, his face would almost glow with happiness. But lately, thatâs not been very often.
Iâm supposed to be asleep now. Donna Jean is snuggled in her bed snoring, and the rest of the house is quiet now. After Daddy helped Gary upstairs, he and my mother talked for a long time. I couldnât hear what they were saying, but their voices were upset. Mama, Iâm sure, wants to protect Gary and move someplace safe like Alaska or Arabiaâanyplace thatâs not Arkansas. Her motherly instincts are to put a big blanket around him and make sure nothing hurts him. Only thereâs no covering large enough to protect him from people like the Smith brothers or the Crandalls. Mama once told Gary to put his anger in a pot and let it