curving red line. The moment weâre all done yelling and applauding for the boys and their collective glory, we head to the locker rooms to change. Seppie jerks me aside, bringing me over by the rows of sinks, and gets all demanding. She yanks her braids out of the elastic that was holding them all into one thick ponytail and grunts at me. âWhat is going on?â
I shrug. I do not want to get into it with Seppie, because Seppie is the sort of person who never believed in Santa, not even when she was two. Sheâs the sort of person who doesnât believe in true love. She believes in endorphin rushes and hormonal surges. She is not the type of person who is going to believe in disappearing men, or boys with acid-tongue spitting abilities.
So I answer her the only way I can. âNothing.â
âOkay, right.â She starts anger-bopping her head at me. Her nails scratch lightly into my upper arm. âYou donât have a big gash in your leg. You and Lyle werenât hanging out alone together in the locker room. And Mrs. Bray did not pass out.â
âRandom stuff.â I pull my arm away and check out my reflection in the mirror. Iâm pale, way too pale, and there are ugly splotches under my eyes.
âDonât you ignore me, Mana.â She shoves her face right above mine. Her jaw rests on the top of my head, and when she talks, it moves against my hair. âYou were off in the cheers, like, a beat behind, and so was Lyle.â
âThat has to be one of the seven deadly sins, right there. Pure evidence of brain trauma,â I quip.
âShut up. For a cheerleader it is. Youâre never off.â
âLyle thinks I have a concussion,â I admit, because sometimes itâs better to give a nugget of truth instead of just denying everything.
âDo you?â
It would be better to pretend I did, better than trying to explain, so I sigh and say, âOkay, maybe.â
She steers me to the bench and sits me down.
âDo not change your clothes,â she orders. âIâm getting Lyle and weâre getting out of here.â
My hand touches my too-fast heart. âOut of here sounds good.â
She thumbs-ups at me, all in-charge doctorâs daughter. She scoots past the fund-raising food table, where the leftover moms of freshmen who donât have cars are tidying up and waiting for their kids. Our chocolate-covered pretzels are still there; most of them sold, of course. Who can resist a chocolate-covered pretzel? Not my mom. Usually she eats any that donât sell. There are a few pretzels slanted and leaning against the rim of the container. They seem abandoned, unwanted, and yummy.
âHey!â I yell after Seppie. âDid you see my mom anywhere?â
She thinks for a second and says, âNo. Weird.â
If she only knew the things I could tell her about weird.
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People are always trying to protect me. I think itâs because I am the flyer. I get thrown around, flipped in twisting tosses, held up in the air, grasped and cradled when I dismount. Seppie and Lyle are my bases, my foundation; they catch me, refuse to let me crash to the mat. They keep me safe when we stunt, and they sometimes get carried away and do it with our lives, which is usually annoying, but tonight ⦠tonight I just let it happen.
Seppie feeds me Advil in the car. Lyle checks my leg gash and my pupils. He takes my pulse.
âItâs a bit high, but I think sheâs good to go.â He makes this funny motion with his hand. âOf course, Iâm a cheerleader, Jim. Not a doctor.â
â Star Trek references now ⦠nice,â I mutter. âNext, youâll just have a little plaque on your forehead with a constantly running red digital readout that says GEEK ALERT .â
âHey. I wouldnât talk,â Lyle says, eyes flashing with happiness. âYou got the reference.â
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