well.” I open and close the door knowing that’s not going to be the last time I will see Detective Payne.
Both Lara and Monica stand to greet me and I walk into their waiting arms. I cry silently inside not letting my pain show, I don’t want them to worry about me. I step back and stare at Lara, “I’m sorry I didn’t find anything new out, in fact, your father painted me as a slut and all the police wanted to know is about my sex life. Detective Payne even asked me if Noah has another woman.”
I notice Lara step back, I didn’t mean to make her feel bad but I'm still angry. “I’m sorry Peppa, daddy won’t back down on this. He really thinks you have taken Noah away from us.”
“Do you think that Lara?” This comes from Monica who is standing there with her hands on her hips.
A male voice suddenly comes from behind me, “Are you still here ladies? Most people can’t wait to get out of here.”
I spin around to look at Detective Payne and with a false smile I say, “We are just leaving.”
I’m not sure if he meant me to hear him or not but he mutters to himself, “Now, that’s a threesome I wouldn’t mind watching.”
The bloody cheek of the man. I grab Monica’s hand and storm out.
Lara shouts after me, “Peppa! Please wait!” I stop when I get to Monica’s car and spin to face her, “Peppa, I want you to know that I’m on your side. Yes, daddy is trying to get me to be the go between but I refuse. I value your friendship and I know Noah loves you. He would be so mad at the way daddy is treating you.”
Monica gets in the car but not before I hear her say, “Yeah right.”
I reach for Lara’s hand and she lets me hold it, “We have both been through a lot these past weeks. I can see you are trying to be a good friend and I appreciate that. He’s your father and I won’t be the reason to cause problems between you both.” Lara opens her mouth to speak but I put my hand up to stop her. “Please let me finish, we need each other at this time. I need your friendship Lara, I’m dying inside right now. This hurts so much and I know you are feeling the same.”
The tears come then and we both hug each other. Monica beeps her car horn and I quickly say goodbye to Lara. On the way home Monica didn’t speak I know she is trying to protect me and I don’t blame her for the way she is with Lara. What Lara and Eric did was horrible. But she didn’t see Lara lying battered on the floor covered in bruises or the devastation she felt by being told Eric has a child with another woman. So I am willing to give Lara another chance and I have to try and stop the resentment Monica is showing towards Lara. When we get home we both slump onto the sofas and I take this moment to approach the Lara situation with her.
“Monica, you know I love you, and I know you are only thinking of me, but please can you let up on Lara? Yes, she was a bitch to me but I’ve forgiven her. I need her. She is my only contact to finding out any news about Noah.”
I watch as her eyebrows meet in the middle and she looks over at me frowning, “I don’t trust her, but because it’s you and you love me so much, I will be polite. That’s all I can offer.”
“Thanks. I’m going to go and take a shower but can you please think about what I’m about to say? Is it Lara you are really mad at or is it her father?”
She didn’t need time as she shouts after me. “Both of them!”
I pretend to watch TV for most of the night as my mind fills with questions no one has the answers to. I think to myself, I should be out there searching for Noah not sitting here watching bloody Casualty. Where do you start when the police have no idea where he is either?
I take myself off to bed to wait for Juan. As I lie there the one question that I’m afraid of the most keeps going around in my head, what if Noah does have another woman?
The bed dips and Juan says, “Hi beautiful.” He tries to kiss me but I move my head to the