each day by dealing with necessitiesâgoing to school, looking out for Angel, and hating Jordan Sparks. Jordan was meanâhe smacked Gerald on the back of his head if he got a C on his report card, he punched him on his arm if he spilled the milk, and he whacked him on his legs for not bringing him a beer fast enough. When Monique tried to speak up, he only laughed and said, âShut up, woman! Iâm gonna make that stupid boy of yours a man!â Gerald had learned to dodge and duck, but he wasnât always fast enough.
He couldnât understand why Monique stayed withJordan. He had asked her once, and her answer was more frightening than the question. It was the Friday before school started. Monique was laughing and dancing to a new song on the radio with Angel. Jordan wasnât home.
Angel looked relaxed and happier than he had seen her in a long time. She was a natural dancerâher petite frame and her long, graceful limbs made her movements seem as if they melted into the music.
Monique collapsed, laughing, onto the couch next to Gerald as the fast song ended and was replaced by a slow, haunting melody. Angel had forgotten their presence, and was moving, eyes closed, to the sweet rhythm of the song. Gerald glanced at Angel, and then at Monique.
âThis is the first time Iâve seen Angel so happy, Monique.â (He still couldnât bring himself to call her Mama again.) âSheâs always so nervous and scared around Jordan.â
âJordan loves that child, Gerald,â replied Monique defensively. âDo you know he goes to her room every single night when he gets home just to tuck her in and kiss her good night? Even if sheâs asleep, he goes in there and spends a few minutes with her. I canât figure out why she acts so scared and stupid all the time when heâs around. It gets on my nerves!â
âArenât you scared of him too, Monique?â
âNo, baby, that ainât fearâthatâs respect. Heâs a man and Iâm a woman. Heâs stronger and tougher and he takes care of me. Itâs okay if he gets a little rough sometimes.Thatâs just to show me whoâs boss, and to show me he loves me.â
Gerald, who had grown up with the strength and toughness of Aunt Queen, didnât think that Monique made much sense. He knew he should leave it alone, but he had to ask. âMonique, why donât we just leave Jordan? Me and you and Angel could be real happyâand we wouldnât have to be scared anymore.â
Monique, eyes flashing, mood destroyed, turned on Gerald. âYou shut up with that kind of talk, you hear! Jordan took you in and buys you food and clothes and tries to be a good father to you and Angel! You better learn some respect, boy! Who you think you are?â She had stormed out of the room then, ripping the radio out of the socket, abruptly stopping Angelâs dance.
That was the last time he had tried to talk to Monique about anything more complicated than homework or shoes or mashed potatoes. Angel was rightâhe felt cold inside. And on this Christmas morning, he felt cold outside as well. He slipped out of bed and shivered as his feet touched the cold floor, then he tiptoed to the window and saw that it had snowed. He smiled in spite of himself. Aunt Queen had loved snow on Christmas morning. The rest of the year she had no patience with itâbut Christmas snow was magic snow, she always said.
Gerald wanted to show Angel. It didnât snow much in Atlanta, and she had never seen a fresh Christmas snowfall. He opened his door and was surprised to see Jordanleaving the small room near the kitchen where Angel slept. Jordan didnât see Geraldâhe just slipped into the room that he and Monique shared and closed the door quietly.
Gerald, fearful of what he might find, refusing to even imagine what he had discovered, raced across the cold floor and opened Angelâs door. Her