I
couldn’t turn around. Why does he keep doing this to me? Why do I keep letting
him? I’m crying again and this time I don’t care if he sees. I turn and try to
run back to my stall but he catches me before I can. I start to cry even
harder. He turns me toward him and puts his hand on the back of my head to
soothe me.
“Sara, I’m sorry.” He lowers us down to the ground and sits there with
me crying on his shoulder.
I feel so stupid. I am stronger than this. I have never let a guy make
me cry before and I’m not about to start now.
“Let me go.” I stood up and walked to the sink. I washed my face off
and dried it. I held my head as high as I could and I walked over to the door.
“I’ll see you in class,” I whisper. With that I unlocked the door and went back
to class.
When he finally chose to follow me, the bell was just ringing. We
didn’t talk to each other. He tried not to look my way unless Shaun was talking
to him. We only talked in class if we had to. Shaun ran into study hall and
grabbed me and Damian by the arms and led us both to the auditorium. Damian had
learned not to ask questions. Our lunches were waiting and Shaun had news.
“What Shaun? I’m not really hungry.” I felt Damian’s glare even though
I refused to look at him.
“Mr. Hitero just told me that you guys both have the leading roles.
Isn’t that great?”
“You’ve got to be kidding. He didn’t like anyone else’s performance?”
Of course I knew he hadn’t. He would say that Damian and I had a kind of
chemistry. I would call it hate.
“I thought you would be happy Sara.”Shaun gives me a confused puppy dog
face.
Oh no, not the puppy eyes. “Shaun, I am happy. I just don’t feel very
well today.”
He knew there was something wrong, but he wouldn’t ask me in front of
Damian. He wouldn’t embarrass me like that. “Oh, well…I forgot something in my
locker, maybe I should go…”
If looks could kill Shaun would be dead right now. “That’s fine. I’ll
keep Sara company while you’re gone.” Damian announces.
Damian was the next one on my list of dirty looks, but right now I was
focusing on a if you leave me here alone with him I’ll kill you look aimed
straight at Shaun. He must not have seen it because he turned around and left
the room.
I turned on Damian, “One minute you can’t stand to be alone with me,
the next you can’t wait to be. Will you make up your mind?”
I turned to stomp away but he grabbed my arm and spun me right into a
longing embrace. I tried to resist at first when he started to kiss me, I can’t
stand to keep doing this. The more I pushed on him the deeper the kiss became.
I hit his chest and tears streamed down my face. And then I gave in. I
wrapped my arms around his neck and ran my fingers through his hair. He started
to pull away and I kissed him deeper. The lights turned on and we were still
holding each other, but we had stopped kissing. The door was about to open and
he picked me up and carried me onstage behind a curtain. He sat me down and we
started kissing again. I didn’t want to stop.
He gave me one last kiss and then, “We need to get back out there
before Shaun starts looking for us. I’ll go around the other way. You go down
the stairs.”
I brushed my shirt down and I fanned my face. I came out from behind
the curtain, went down the stairs, and went over to our table like I hadn’t
moved. Todd looked at me kinda funny, but I just gave him a look, and he turned
his head. Shaun sat down at the table and I reached for my chair but somehow,
Damian had got there before me and pulled it out again. Mr. Hitero announced
the roles for the play and then told us we had the rest of the period to
ourselves.
Nick started talking to us but Damian cut in, “Do you want to go for a
walk Sara?”
It’s like he read my mind. “Sure, we’ll see you after school, right
Shaun?” I didn’t like leaving him in the dark, but I didn’t feel quite ready to
explain