would notice them,â I suppose, âyou being green-fingered and all,â said Steph.
âWhat would Rob say if he knew you were being sent flowers?â teased Melissa.
âI donât think he would care,â said Eilis âAnyway there was nothing romantic about it. He was just saying sorry.â
âWhy had he shouted at you?â
âHis mother hadnât been seen. Lovely woman, she was.â That evening on the ward, she had seen his mother as soon as she could, gave her every test going and asked one of the nurses to make her and the man a cup of tea. They both looked as though they needed one. âIt was a suspected stroke,â she continued, âbut in the end it wasnât. High blood pressure, dizziness, hadnât been taking her tablets. Sheâs just old, you know. And heâs worried⦠about losing her. Anyway⦠thatâs enough about work.â She changed the subject swiftly, deflecting all the attention away from her. âHowâs Rachel, Steph?â
âA genius,â smiled Steph. âMust take after her father. But sheâs good at everything⦠just a few teenager things going on. Sheâs sixteen now.â
Melissa watched her two old friends. Two women she had known for a lifetime. She had missed them. Their lives were much more settled and grown up than hers. There was Eilis, still with Rob. A great guy. One of the best. He had swooped in just when Eilis could have crumbled after her mother died. And there was Steph, mother to Rachel, and still with Rick. He wasnât exactly lovely or easy, that was obvious, but they had made a home together. It always made Melissa slightly wistful â she had never found anyone crazy enough to want her back.
âDidnât you say you were back from Paris, Mel?â Steph asked, interrupting her thoughts. âThe day of the crash. I never even asked who you were with.â
Bloody Paris. Why had she said anything? âOh no one, not really. Just a guy⦠Alistair. Itâs nothing.â She waved it away, hoping there wouldnât be any follow-up questions. âAnyway, itâs Paris,â said Melissa, shrugging Gallicly and smiling enigmatically, as though she was the one to have finished with him, or that he was just some fling that she could take up or down whenever it suited her. âIt does all the work for you.â
âWell, you in Paris,â said Steph, âand Iâm off to Rome next month.â
âIâm not going anywhere until the summer,â said Eilis. âGreece. I wish we were going right now. Bit of heat on my bones, ouzo in my veins.â She turned to Steph. âWho are you going to Rome with? Just you and Rick?â
âHim and some of the gang. A rugby weekend. You know Miriam and Hugh⦠from next door? And some of their friends. Itâs going to be fun. And you know how much I love Rome. All that art, the churches. I can dust off my art history.â Except, she thought, I might as well have not bothered doing a degree. I canât remember the last time I went to a gallery. She vowed to sneak off, leave the rugby crowd behind, and get to the Pantheon, her favourite Roman church.
âYes, yes, of course. That does sound niceâ¦â said Eilis. âThatâll be lovely. Remember that summer in Rome, swanning about.â
âThat was for the love of art,â said Steph laughing. âAnd this is a love of rugby.â
âOh dear,â said Melissa, pretending to be shocked. âI didnât realize you had turned into one of those.â
âIâm not really,â said Steph, conspiratorially. âI just have to pretend.â
âMarital harmony,â said Melissa. âYou probably have to pretend all sorts of things.â She laughed but she caught Stephâs eye and saw again that look of something she couldnât quite figure out.
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