over, touched my arm, said,
âYou have taken on his speech patterns. Next youâll be making lists.â
Clumsily, I tried to cover the current list with my teacup. She continued,
âJack has a dark, very dark magnetism. Alas, it obliterates those who stay drawn to it. Look at his closest friends . . . Stewart,â
Pause.
Dead.
Then,
âRidge . . . just out of hospital. Not to mention a long line of casual acquaintances, bartenders, street people, so-called snitches, even an innocent child. All Taylor-tainted and all dead or wounded. My own husband and, God forgive me, my own lost heart.â
Fuck!
I noticed she still wore the Irish wedding band, the Claddagh ring. The heart turned inwardâfor whom, Jack or her husband?
I didnât ask.
Did ask,
âDo you hate him?â
She seemed quite astonished, took a moment to regroup, then,
âNot so long ago it seemed as if Jack might be on the verge of happiness.â
We both laughed nervously at such a notion. She continued,
âAn American he met on a weekend in London. The affair apparently burned bright and rapidly. The high point was her impending visit to Galway. . . . Jack was aglow.â
I went,
âWow, hold the phones. She knew about his drinking, right?â
She rolled her eyes, said,
âMother of God, everybody and his sister knows that! There was another woman, hell-bent on destroying every aspect of Jackâs life and had somehow gotten hold of his mobile. The American arrived, no one to meet her at the airport, so . . .â
She took a deep breath.
âShe answered Jackâs phone, said,
âJack canât come to the phone,
heâs about to come in me.ââ
I went Irish,
âHoly fuck!â
I ventured,
âDo you still have some . . . um . . . residual feelings for Jack?â
She laughed but not with any warmth, said,
âResidual! Jesus, sounds like a TV repeat. How deeply fucked is the ordinary art of conversation by political correctness.â
Her use of obscenity gave her words a blunt trauma and also affirmed that this line of questioning was done. She gathered her coat, asked,
âWhat happened to your friendship with the bold Jack?â
Taken aback, I considered some answers that might put me in a better light. This womanâs approval seemed necessary. I said simply,
âI betrayed him.â
She took a sharp breath, then,
âPhew, thatâs bad, no return there.â
I asked,
âHe doesnât forgive betrayal?â
âJack doesnât forgive anything or anyone.â
I reverted to American, said,
âHard-core, eh?â
She gave me a look, savored that, said,
âThere is one person he can never forgive.â
I wanted to guess, âYour husband,â but some discretion held my tongue. She had such a look of profound sadness, so I asked,
âWho might that be?â
âHimself.â
Those who actually work say
âI get wages.â
Those who just think they work say
âIâm on a salary.â
(Jack Taylor)
Jack had recently resumed drinking in the River Inn. He hung there as NUIG staff like to unwind near the university. After a grueling day of between one and two lectures. One guy dressed in a worn cord jacket with, and I kid thee not, patches on the elbows, was a regular. A man whoâd read his John Cheever or watched one too many episodes of University Challenge . He liked to drink large Jamesons, no ice, no water. A dedicated souse. Jack knew him slightly from Charley Byrneâs bookshop, where he spent hours loitering in the Literary Crit section.
Jack began to join him at the counter, freely buying him rounds, creating an artificial camaraderie through drink. The guy liked to talk a lot.
A few sessions in, Jack slipped de Burgo into the chat, began,
âProfessor de Burgo seems to be highly respected.â
No one pisses on academics like their colleagues. The guy didnât