Guarded Heart by C.A Harms Read Free Book Online Page B

before hitting send. I was
cleaning on a Saturday afternoon when my doorbell rang. I quickly made my way
over to the stereo to turn it down and ran over to the door. Opening it to see
my mother was not what I needed today but the fact that Tony stood directly
beside her made me angrier. “What is he doing here with you?” She rushed passed
me and into my home he passed and followed her. She looked around and then
turned to face me, “Oh please Samantha stop with the dramatics. It really just
makes you seem so childish. I am here with Tony to help you two works through
this issue of yours.” I felt like my bottom jaw hit the floor, “Oh no, MY
ISSUE! You have got to be kidding me. He knocked up my cousin Mother…I FOUND
HIM SCREWING HER ON MY KITCHEN TABLE! Excuse me for not just brushing that off
as no big deal.” She stood there staring at me like I was insane, “He made a
mistake Samantha I think it is time to forgive and move on.” I couldn’t believe
how calm she was acting it infuriated me. My own mother stood in front of me
pretending that everything Tony did was no big deal and here he stood letting
my mother fight his battle. “You know what…both of you just get out. NOW!” I
screamed at them. Tony turned toward the door but my mother took a step toward
me, “You are throwing away a good man because you are being extremely selfish.”
I didn’t back down, “You may want to live your life blind while your husband
spends his days and nights screwing random women but I refuse to be like you.”
My mother smacked me across the face so hard I felt like my jaw shifted. She
turned and walked out. Tony passed in the door, “I am sorry we came…and I am
sorry I hurt you.”
    I shrunk to the floor and cried I felt sick! Allison was
right and I was being a bitch. Until just know I refused to believe that
anything she said to me had truth but she was right. I was letting Tony lead my
decisions, I chose my life based on what was supposed to be instead of what it
truly is. I made my choices based on what Tony would think. I mean I even
painted my bedroom his favorite color for Christ sakes. I spent the next twenty
four hours drowning out my sorrows with all the alcohol I could and Sunday
evening when I was drunk and crying I caved.
    “I am so sorry Alli, I love you and you were right…so
right!”
    After I send the text my phone rang immediately…
    We both cried so hard and barely understood each other.
She asked me to come over but after she realized I was loaded she told me she
would be over in fifteen minutes.
    We sat talking and crying until two in the morning and I
ended up calling in Monday morning I was such a mess. I told her about
everything that happened when my mom and Tony showed up. I told her about
seeing Wes and his ex-wife at the store. I even told her that I immediately
felt jealous but was glad he looked happy. “Sam he isn’t getting back with his
ex…she is a total bitch. I mean mega bitch. She uses that poor little girl to
barge her way into Wes’s heart. He won’t refuse his little girl. She calls him
and says that MaKayla and her don’t have food or she needs shoes…whatever it
may be and he won’t let her do without even though he pays child support she
still pushes for more. It is sad who knows what she does with the money he
gives her. Sarah, that’s his ex she knows how to get to him…through MaKayla.”
After I listened to her I couldn’t help feeling relieved that he wasn’t back
with her. I was too embarrassed to call him though I mean I acted like such a
baby about everything.
    Things got better over the next week I had my best friend
back and things become a little easier. I hadn’t heard any more from my mother
which was fine with me I had nothing to say to her. Tony on the other hand kept
sending texts message that he loved me and even left a rose on my car a few
times with notes that I never read. I threw them in the garbage. I wanted him
to just leave me alone.