know, you need to keep the system moving!â
His mother looked at him and smiled. âWhy give it so much thought? Are you scared of dying?â She pulled out a chair and sat down at the table, taking his big hand in hers and patting it gently; it was white and soft, the nails bitten to the quick.
âI want to die long before you,â Eddie said, âbecause I donât want to be left on my own.â
Mass looked pensive. âEddie,â she said, âIâm fifty-six. And youâre twenty-one. You can work out for yourself what that means.â
His heavy head sank and he looked despondent. Mass, who was christened Thomasine, a name she couldnât stand and had never used, wanted to comfort him.
âDonât think about it. It wonât happen for a long time yet. Weâre both fit and healthy, and weâll live for many more years. So we should just enjoy every single day of the time we have left.â
âWhat stops first? Your heart or your breathing?â Eddie asked.
âDepends,â Mass said. âBut I donât really know about things like that. Come on, letâs go into the living room;
Tracker Tore
is about to start.â
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The light from the screen flickered across Eddieâs face. The blue and white shadows illuminated his heavy features and brought his face to life. He chewed the cinnamon rolls slowly, sipping from his can of Cherry Coke every so often. He loved the sweet, sickly, prickly cold feeling on his tongue.
His mother sat beside him with her feet on a footstool and a blanket over her knees. She glanced over at her son from time to time and wondered what would become of him. Eddie was special; he didnât fit in with society. He had once gotten a job sorting mail but gave up after only fourteen days. He had struggled to get there on time in the morning and found it hard being around strangers. There was no doubt that he had talents. He had once built a church with sugar lumps and confectionersâ sugar, which took him several weeks. It even had a spire. He was brilliant at doing crosswords and his memory was impressive. It was often he who had to remind her of things. When they sat together in the evenings, watching quiz shows on TV, he knew more than she did even though she was thirty years older. Presumably he had gathered a lot of knowledge from the Internet, which she couldnât make head or tail of, whereas he could sit in front of the computer for hours at a time. If she made the mistake of promising him something, he would never forget about it and would not stop nagging until she had done what she promised. Like when he started to beg for a puppy eight years ago. She had said, letâs see, but not right now. Well, when then? he asked. In the summer maybe, I donât know, she said wearily. But is it more than a year? He pestered her like a horsefly. Eddie, she said, letâs not talk about it anymore. But when can we talk about it, then? he persisted. Can we talk about it this evening? Or tomorrow perhaps? They had the same conversation at regular intervals. She had to give in eventually. And so Shiba arrived in the house, a soft champagne-colored puppy who chewed everything she could find: wires, several pairs of shoes, the book spines on the bottom shelf. An old thirteen-volume encyclopedia, bound in red leather, had been stripped of its spines. But Eddie soon grew bored with the dog, and she knew for a fact that he taunted Shiba when she wasnât looking. But he still did some duties. He had to take her out for a walk three times a day. They were short walks because both he and Shiba were overweight and slow.
She looked sideways at him now. There was something else that Eddie had begged for. He had wanted them to go to Copenhagen to look for his fatherâs grave, and she had given her usual reply: weâll see. To be honest, she didnât even know where he was buried.
Eddie reached out for the last