wouldnât let go. I remember every one we spent together, the way youâd drag me through the shops. Those few years with you made up for all the times as a kid I woke up to nothing.â
The old sympathy welled up. âYour father couldnât face the holidays, Jason. He just couldnât handle it without your mother.â
âI understand that better now. After losing you.â He turned back. She wasnât looking at him now, but bent industriously over the stove. âYouâve been spending Christmas alone, too.â
âNo, I have Clara.â
She tensed as he walked to her. âNo one to fill the stockings with you, or share secrets about whatâs under the tree.â
âI manage. You have to alter life to suit yourself.â
âYeah.â He took her chin in his hand. âIâm beginning to believe it.â
The door slammed open. Wet and beaming, Clara stood dripping on the mat. âWe made angels in the snow.â
Faith raised a brow. âSo I see. Well, youâve got fifteen minutes to get out of those wet things and set the table.â
She struggled out of her coat. âCan I turn on the tree?â
âGo ahead.â
âCome on.â Clara held out a hand for Jason. âItâs the best one on the block.â
Emotions humming, Faith watched them walk out together.
Chapter 5
They were still humming when the meal was over. She knew her daughter was a friendly, sometimes outrageously open child, but Clara had taken to Jason like a long-lost friend. She chattered away at him as though sheâd known him for years.
Itâs so obvious, Faith thought as she watched Clara stack dishes. Neither of them noticed. What would she do if they did? She didnât believe in lies, yet sheâd been forced to live one.
The other two paid little attention to her as they settled down with Claraâs books. In the easy, flowing style heâd been born with, Jason began to tell her stories about Africaâthe desert, the mountains, the thick green jungle that teemed with its own life and its own dangers.
As their heads bent together over a picture in Claraâs book, Faith felt a flood of panic. âIâm going to go next door,â she said on impulse. âI have a lot of work backed up.â
âMm-hmm.â With that, Jason dismissed her. A laugh bubbled in her throat until it ached. Grabbing her coat, Faith escaped.
They were more than toys to her. They were certainly more than a business. To Faith the dolls who filled her shop were the symbol of youth, of innocence, of believing in miracles. Sheâd wanted to open the shop soon after Clara had been born, but Tom had been adamantly set against it. Because sheâd felt indebted, sheâd let it pass, as sheâd let so many other things pass. Then, when sheâd found herself alone, with a child to support, it had seemed the natural thing.
She worked long hours there, to ease the void that even the love for her daughter couldnât fill.
In her workroom behind the store were shelves filled with pieces and parts of dolls. There were china heads, plastic legs and torsos. In another section lay the ones she called the sick and injured. Dolls with broken arms or battered bodies were brought to her for repair. Though she enjoyed selling and found a great creative thrill in making her own dolls, nothing satisfied her quite so much as taking a broken toy that was loved and making it whole again. She turned on the light and her radio and set to work.
It soothed her. As time passed, her nerves drained away. With crochet hook and rubber bands, with glue and painstaking care, she replaced broken limbs. With a bit of paint and patience, she brought smiles back to faceless dolls. Some were given new clothes or a fresh hairstyle, while others only needed a needle and thread plied by clever fingers.
By the time she picked up a battered rag doll, she was