night.
Before getting to the cashier, our arms filled to the brim, I piped up with concern over how much this was all going to cost:
âRebecca, all of this is wonderful, but . . .â
The way she lifted her index finger, I could tell sheâd been waiting for this moment.
âDonât worry about it. The agency will advance you the money.â
So it would be an advance, not a gift.
âBut Iâll never make enough to pay you back!â
âRest assured. You wonât have any out-of-pocket expenses.â
I slowly grasped what she meant. Much like drug dealers and human traffickers, Rebecca provided her new recruits with generous advances on their future salaries.
âWhat you mean is youâll deduct it from my first missions?â
âThatâs right.â
âAnd so long as I havenât reimbursed you, Iâll be working for you for free?â
She glared at me, then broke into a cavernous laugh:
âAnd here I thought you were just the pretty one. Iâm happy to discover that youâre also the smarter of the two.â
Intelligent, maybe, but also hers now.
All she had to do was firmly put all the gorgeous clothing in my hands for me to look beyond the poisoned gift and see the promise of a gilded future. A life where I would not need Rebecca Sibony to treat myself to things like these.
Fred was right. I had definitely gone to the other side. And I didnât want to go back.
5
April 2009
Y ou can open your eyes, Elle.â
How had he managed to perform such a miracle? In less than twenty seconds, the massive dining hall, its staff and fifty guests included, had been completely emptied. Now we were alone. Just he and I in the middle of all the gilt, drinking magnum bottles of champagne under flickering candlelight. The candles ran the length of the hall, replacing the electric chandeliers that had served as lighting until just a moment before. From an adjacent room, we could hear a harpsichordâs crystalline notes singing what sounded like a piece by Rameau.
âHow . . . How did you do that?â
He and his honeyed voice, the clarity of which reminded me of the actor whoâd recorded a reading of Corneilleâs Le Cid and starred in Fanfan la Tulipe . I had my own theory: up to a certain point, individuals of the same physical type are equipped with more or less the same quality of voice. But David Barletâs voice was not content to imitate Gérard Philipe. He had deeper, graver inflections that continued to ring in the air long after heâd finished speaking. His voice, like his person, was surprisingly young, but he was as capable as any bass or baritone of giving you shivers. He was a perfect combination of lightness and gravitas.
I know now: a manâs voice, and just his voice, can fill me with maddening desire. His voice is like a sex toy that titillates my clitoris with every sentence. Hmm, I wonder if thereâs a Rabbit . . .
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Anonymous handwritten note, 4/15/2009âDavidâs, I canât deny it . . .
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A MINUTE EARLIERâAT THIS POINT, we had only known each other for a half hourâhe had asked me to close my eyes. Iâd had just enough time to see him whisper something into the head waiterâs ear and hastily pass a scribbled note to our immediate table neighbors. A few instants later, the miracle had been accomplished. David was that powerful. He was a magician. A man with what seemed like limitless powers.
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AFTER MY SHOPPING TRIP WITH Rebecca, I had a busy schedule of missions. One or two a week. Everything was as sheâd described in our interview. For the most part, all I had to do was wear one of the extravagant ensembles she had purchased for me; parade on the arm of a man who was double or triple my age; teeter, long-legged, on my extremely high heels; keep my torso and neck as straight as a ballerina; and attend a great number of frivolous and