I am Haunted: Living Life Through the Dead by Zak Bagans, Kelly Crigger Read Free Book Online Page A

empathy that you’re also in pain. You comfort them with words and touch and let them sense that you’re hurting, too, which relieves them. That’s what I do for these spirits. I don’t just help them; I also guide them through the astral plane. We humans are constantly striving for happiness, so is it so hard to imagine that spirits who were once human would want the same thing? We all want to be free of pain, disease, violence, and suffering. Life is a fight against these adversities. Even when we’re happy, we fear falling toward a state of illness, trauma, insecurity, or whatever.

    Most of the places I’ve investigated have been the sites of atrocities and disasters that resulted in pain, suffering, and death. These places are vortexes of supercharged emotion, and I believe that the physical surroundings—the trees, the rocks, the walls—can hold onto the energy of those disasters. But more incredibly, so do I, and I frequently experience delayed pain from making contact with spirits. I’m sure we all try to avoid death, but I believe it’s this moment of mortality when a person dies that imprints a spirit on its surroundings and keeps some spirits earthbound because they’re still fighting to get their lives back. Wouldn’t any of us do the same?
    When I’m not filming, I don’t go out a lot anymore. I’m not around people as much as I used to be. I don’t leave my house like I did a few years ago. Instead, I travel back to the places I’ve been to visit the spirits there; even though I’m physically at my house, my mind is always away. I visit these spirits just like you would visit your friends. Usually I see smiles and happiness, which I’d like to think is because I came to see them. I know how strange this sounds, but I don’t care. I know it’s real.
    I deal with the world of the unknown and the unexplained. I can’t explain why these things happen to me, but they do. All I can do is welcome it and try to learn from it. But I also worry that something darker may be aware that I’m involved in it. Am I making things worse by opening myself up?
    I had a friend who had something dark come through while he was opening himself up to a loving spirit. He’s smart, educated, and likable, but he was not aware that something evil could find him. He was so focused on opening up to a good spirit with love and compassion that he never saw the dark one that blindsided him. Your soul is like the Stargate. If you open it up too long to the spirit world, bad things can come through, and they’ll attach themselves to you. His sessions with the loving spirit were too long and too open, and he was unprepared for what could happen. His armor wasn’t strong enough to combat anything dark. His emotions were focused on the good things, and that left him vulnerable to the bad thing that came through and still affects him to this day.
    Dark things have tried to come for me, but I’m always ready for them. I train myself and my soul to be strong while I visit other times and spirits. I gain knowledge from others in the field: parapsychologists, psychic mediums, and demonologists. I prepare and cleanse myself with prayer, meditation, and communing with Mother Nature. If you try to contact spirits without doing those things first, something bad will take notice and try to destroy you. The more you work in and around the paranormal, the more you open yourself up to the dark side of it, which is dangerous. You’re vulnerable to paranormal diseases that you can’t get rid of. This isn’t the thrill ride that many people think it is. There are health risks and life-or-death situations that most people don’t understand.
    I don’t fear the visions I have because most of them are sad or happy and pretty nonthreatening. However, some are evil, and those are the ones that concern me. One such episode shook me to the core.
    I usually get visions in the daytime, but of course we all dream. One night I dreamed that I had