lost. In fact I know exactly where Iâm going and I really donât need anybody to help me. Particularly you.â
âYouâre misunderstanding my meaning. When I say âlost,â I donât mean geographically lost. I mean lost in the sense that you donât know what the hell youâre going to do next.â
Frank stopped, reached into his shirt pocket and gave the old man a ten-dollar bill. The old man took it and flapped it from side to side. âWhatâs this for?â
âPhilosophical services rendered. Now will you push off and leave me alone?â
The old man pulled his mouth down in an exaggerated expression of dismay. âIâm not a panhandler, if thatâs what youâre thinking. I can tell when people need guidance, thatâs all. I can see when theyâve reached an impasse.â
âWell, thatâs a very great gift. Now, if youâll just . . .â He made a toddling gesture with his fingers.
The old man stayed where he was, so Frank carried on walking toward the pier. He had only gone a few paces, however, when the old man called out, âIt wasnât your fault, Frank!â
Frank felt a fizzing sensation in his scalp, as if he had touched a bare electric wire. He turned around and stared at the old man. â What ?â
âYou heard me. It wasnât your fault.â
âHow do you know my name?â Frank demanded, walking back to him.
âThatâs a gift, too. See that girl on the roller-skates there? Her nameâs Helena. Go ask her if you donât believe me. See that fellow with the dog? Guy.â
âThis is a scam. Get the hell out of here before I call a cop.â
âNo scam, Frank. It wasnât your fault, and thatâs the top and bottom of it. What you have to do now is forgive yourself, and move on.â
âSo why should you care?â
The old man took out a filthy crumpled handkerchief and blew his nose. âI care because I care because I care. Whatâs the point of having a God-granted gift if you never share it with anyone?â
âAll right, you know my name, or else youâve guessed it, or youâve seen me on TV. What does that prove?â
âI know more than your name, Frank. I know whatâs going to happen to you. I know the reason youâre here, even if you donât. Youâll cross the road and youâll never come back.â
Frank waited for the old man to explain what he meant, but he simply stood there smiling at him with his four brown teeth and a look in his one good eye that was almost triumphant. After more than a minute, Frank turned, hesitated, and then he walked away. The old man continued to smile at him until he disappeared amongst the crowds.
Frank leaned on the pier railing and closed his eyes and let the ocean breeze blow into his face. He could hear slowly moving traffic and the slurr-chunk! of skateboards and people talking and laughing. He could hear the Pacific, and the monotonous clanking of yachts. He could hear the gulls.
Inside his head, soundlessly, The Cedars was still blowing up, black smoke growing up into the air like fir trees, bits of metal and bits of brick falling all around him. And Dannyâs blood-streaked arm, waggling from side to side as he ran along the street, silently screaming for help.
Youâll cross the road and youâll never come back.
âHey!â said a womanâs voice, very close to him.
He opened his eyes and blinked. A young woman was leaning against the rail just two or three feet away, although the ocean was sparkling so brightly behind her that he could see little more than a silhouette. The silhouette wore a wide-brimmed straw hat and a sleeveless white cotton dress.
âIâm afraid I donât know your name,â she told him.
He thought, that makes a change. Everybody else around here seems to know it.
âDonât you remember me?â she