was gone. Gone forever.
The village children were waiting to fill her in. When Gilliard had arrived, heâd been met by a group of soldiers who had flown down from Dakar. Soldiers and a woman, a skinny American woman whoâd shown up burning with anger.
Standing where everyone could see them, sheâd yelled at Gilliard. Her voice was as high-pitched as a fish eagleâs (she also resembled one, the children said), and she talked so fast that even those who understood some English couldnât follow her.
When sheâd taken a breath, Trey had turned and walked away from her. Heâd gone into his hut. Five minutes later, heâd emerged, carrying his pack and some other things, and climbed into the car with some soldiers and the angry woman.
âDo you think heâll come back?â the children asked. They liked Gilliard. He was strange and generous, two things they appreciated in outsiders.
âNo, Iâm afraid not,â Mariama said. âI think heâs gone for good.â
As she spoke the words, she felt a black space open in her chest, just around her heart.
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âHAVE THEY PUT him in jail?â she asked her father that night. They were in the empty clinic. It was clean, scrubbed down, disinfected. You could only detect the thievesâ odor if you sat still and breathed deeply.
Seydou Honso shook his head. There might even have been a glint of amusement in his eyes.
âNo,â he said. âThe government has no interest in keeping him. They just want him out. The soldiers were the ladyâs idea.â
âThat was Kendall? The one who was always calling?â
He nodded. âI think she believed the only way to get him to listen was to bring men with guns.â
Mariama said, âThat was probably true.â
They sat in silence for a while. Now there was no expression on Seydou Honsoâs face except for a kind of grim certainty.
âI fear we have missed our chance,â he said.
Mariama had known he would feel this way. She said, âNo.â
âBut who else will listen? Who else will understand what is taking place?â
âThere are others,â she said. âBut Gilliard is the one to tell them.â
She thought about his expression when she found him in the forest. Yes, he would understand.
âBut how?â Her father turned his palms up. âHeâs gone, and he wonât be welcomed back. Ever.â
âI know,â Mariama said.
âAnd calling him on the telephone wonât work, no more than it did for that Kendall lady.â
âNo.â
âThen what?â
âI will go see him,â she said.
Seydouâs eyes widened. âBut how? You have no passport.â
This was a fact. Mariamaâs outspokenness had led to her losing her right to travel anywhere outside Senegal. She even required permission to leave the Casamance region.
Legally, that was.
âYou know how,â she told her father.
He stared at her. Then he said, âYou cannot.â
âI can. I must.â She reached out and put a hand on his strong arm. âPapa, I have no choice.â
He argued with her. Finally, almost breathless, he said, âYouâll die.â
She smiled. âPerhaps I wonât,â she said. Then, âOr perhaps I will. You know I have never feared death.â
Nor had he, not for himself. She knew that. Every day he risked malaria, dengue, river blindness, and a hundred diseases that had no name, in order to treat the clinicâs patients.
He had no fear for his own life. For hers, though, yes. Of course.
Mariama said again, âI have no choice.â
In the end, he knew it was so. âBut not right away,â he said. âThere are people I can talk to, people who will help you.â
She nodded. Though she didnât speak, she knew he understood her gratitude.
âIf Iâm lucky,â she said, âhow long